04-26-2014, 02:43 PM
I feel a sense of angst right now. Like my dreams of anthro world have been shattered. I've focused more on my lower chakras, and this has taken some energy away from my heart chakra. I don't feel as loving right now, and my greatest dream now is for a quick incarnation, like I responded to in A1's thread.
The sun is not one who learns as we do, according to Ra. It is of the entire Octave. So I feel like I might not be able to become a star. If I did, I'd be living for many billions of years, and would delay my entry into 7D. Unless I could be a star in 7D. It is the density of foreverness, so the life of a star in this density is probably miniscule compared to creation.
I no longer want to create a universe, because it would be immense to undertake and keep track. If I could be a sub-Logos (star) to an anthro world, that would still be a billion or so souls which I would be aware of. I'd be aware of everything they did. I don't think I have the emotional maturity to handle that. The veil is making things very difficult for me.
I can't seem to find joy or love in the moment. Nor do I feel very wise.
Not sure if I'll be able to try those crystals Aureus. I can no longer buy stuff on Ebay, because my Paypal account was banned. I've never had much luck with crystals in the past, though I did feel one resonate with me once. It felt like it copied my own energy pattern, and amplified it. So crystals for me amplify what is already there. In my case it would be the angst that I feel.
I still feel like a loving being, I just don't feel love right now. Not even for anthros. They feel so fake to me.
Not sure if this is a spiritual cleanse and temporary. I feel like my love for them could come back at a later time.
The sun is not one who learns as we do, according to Ra. It is of the entire Octave. So I feel like I might not be able to become a star. If I did, I'd be living for many billions of years, and would delay my entry into 7D. Unless I could be a star in 7D. It is the density of foreverness, so the life of a star in this density is probably miniscule compared to creation.
I no longer want to create a universe, because it would be immense to undertake and keep track. If I could be a sub-Logos (star) to an anthro world, that would still be a billion or so souls which I would be aware of. I'd be aware of everything they did. I don't think I have the emotional maturity to handle that. The veil is making things very difficult for me.
I can't seem to find joy or love in the moment. Nor do I feel very wise.
Not sure if I'll be able to try those crystals Aureus. I can no longer buy stuff on Ebay, because my Paypal account was banned. I've never had much luck with crystals in the past, though I did feel one resonate with me once. It felt like it copied my own energy pattern, and amplified it. So crystals for me amplify what is already there. In my case it would be the angst that I feel.
I still feel like a loving being, I just don't feel love right now. Not even for anthros. They feel so fake to me.
Not sure if this is a spiritual cleanse and temporary. I feel like my love for them could come back at a later time.