Damaged and Contrast

[Horuseus]

I think you're right Horuseus. I'm going to see about getting in touch with my friend and hanging out more.
He's an atheist, so I won't need to discuss spirituality with him.

That sounds awesome, it would do you good. I'm sure there are local meetups in your area for other aspects that may also interest you such as hiking. Even if it doesn't particularly seem compelling at first sight, try it out and you may come to love it. Honestly, practising 'spirituality' is less about discussing higher planes and more about actively partaking and enjoying in the 3D experience in a conscious manner. It is about 'grounding' higher principles in your life and viewing a seemingly mundane experience with the majesty that underpins it.

The Ra material could be just putting a bandaid over the real issues.

From what I read, and as an 'external' observer and a brother, this certainly seems to be the case. It also appears as though you know this already.

We've all done it, and it's a phase we go through, however the time comes where it has to stop prior to going out of control and losing touch with reality. Almost always the genesis is the lack of satisfaction as mentioned earlier, and perhaps you fear moving forward and making practical changes, however it's also the first step to truly moving forward. You will come out of it as a better person, and will ultimately be fulfilled.

This forum does offer some escapism from my troubles, because
I find most people here understanding.

Do you think this 'understanding' is perhaps because people here are not likely to criticize you for your beliefs?

While folk here mean well, that's not really understanding. True service comes from offering what that person needs, and not what they want. In this case I feel as though there's a disconnect between your needs and wants. Your wants are to cover the fear through all this higher density love and light talk, whereas your needs require you to face the dissatisfaction with honesty and work though it.

Doesn't have to be anything big. Small changes such as hanging out with friends more, taking Loki out for a walk in a nature park, taking a holiday from work and going on vacation if you're able to work around that. Taking up painting, music, or whatever floats your boat really. The key is to allow yourself to open the door to the possibility there is 'more' for you here, rather than indulging in these feel good belief systems such as the Ra Material.

I probably could use a break from Ra.

Probably . It's not 'Ra' specific either, as this can apply to any belief system or framework which enables bypassing (Pretty much everything out there). So, the key is to avoid the initial behaviour of retreating to ones shell of beliefs to numb that pain, which will only and ever become louder as I'm sure you're aware of.

If there's anything specific you're frustrated about in your life, make a thread here and list it all. I'm sure folk here can show alternate ways of looking at those situations and propose solutions that you may earnestly take on board.