What are you afraid of (spiritually)?

[Adonai One]

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you have a lot you want to achieve in this life? (I think you already outlined your goals in response to a question I asked previously)

what are the impediments to accomplishing your intentions, as far as you are able to discern?

I listed my goals for the next 5 years or less. There are many others. I feel there are no impediments. I believe everything is possible but nothing is certain. It is coping with the fact that nothing is certain that brings me fear that I consistently accept and attempt to pacify. It is accepting the fact that I might not have what I desire that I must become satisfied with.

Do you find there is any conflict within yourself over the fact that you greatly desire to achieve certain things, yet your philosophy essentially prohibits you from fully utilizing your will (as in my mind, a powerful will can achieve certainty)?

The desires are mostly natural and primordial. They are inherently expressed and thus require no will to fulfill, only a natural expression of primordial will that quickly reaches peace. What I want to do should require no effort but only a moderate pace of mindfulness.

Wu-wei.

I don't believe in certainty. I believe a concept of certainty creates fear in the first place.