Activation

[third-density-being]

Firstly I would like to write that mentioned by me "spaceship" was an joke-attempt to soften overtone of my conclusion regarding your possible decision of not commtting suicide. After thinking it through I have to write it was quite poor attempt. I'll refrain my self from similar actions in the future.

I can try to support/serve You as far as I can understand You and your situation. Since I'm mind oriented, I require knowledge to do that. That being said, I would like to ensure You that I do not intend to intrude your privacy in any way - therefore please share only what You feel comfortable with. When I will ask You about things You do not want to speak of, please do not force your Self to do that - just inform me You do not want to share. I will accept it fully.

That was part of the confusion for me. I didn't understand how exactly "it" was going to happen. It is very hard to explain the methods of communication, or how it feels in general during the moment. This was in the beginning and at the time it was very new and confusing/scary for me.

Any way You are able to describe "communication" You are refering to will be of aid for my understanding.

I would like to add that feeling of being "scary" is not what (as I understand it) positive contacts should looks like. What You are describing is a massive experience in very short period of time, which was simply overwhelming for You. Based on You first post here which began this thread, I have an impression that it was induced (as I wrote before). I still do not know what to think about it. In this matter I am confused.

Looking backwards on the situation, it seems perhaps the subconscious of people around me was being "influenced" to communicate back with part of myself? However, if I attempted to reply back consciously, the person would be very confused at what I was talking about and only seemed to notice one layer of what was exchanged. If I "pushed" the issue, there would be a very uncomfortable energy exchange between us.

As an example.

In above quote I've bolded those key informations which was not included in example given afterwards. Could You please describe situation when such communication with Other-Self subconscious took place, what was the information received by You and what was content/wording of your conversation while You were "pushing the subject"? It would clarify a lot for me.

I remember asking how "they" were communicating with me (I asked this inside my own head) immediately after asking this a conversation developed between co-workers about radio controlled cars. Specifically, how if we were to each purchase one, we would need to make sure that each of us got cars operating on different frequencies, or else all the cars would be inoperable.

(If anyone has any insights on the above "metaphor" please share them. Sometimes I become wrapped up inside my own subjective experience and need another perspective to "view" from)

I personally understand it quite literally. That is everyone of Us has his/her own, Unique frequence of (to name/label it is true challenge for me) vibration/beingness/Self. In this last case (Self) it came to my mind that since we (and everything that is) are "Parts" of one infinite Creator and each Part vibrates in unique/different way, that when everything will become One again, all spectrum of vibrations will be once again One/Whole Music/Creator.

The above may seem like simple coincidence to most but for one engaged in such an exchange you know differently.

There are those who do not belive in coincidences and claims that everything has it's purpose/reason. Others perceive everything as a coincidences and claims it is our "work" to create/generate coincidences our-Selves which should serve us.
We are in reality where everything has it's "flip side" - as It has to have since we are here to make a choice. Each choice is good/proper, since in the end we all will be united into One Creator. (yes, I wrote it, but to be honest I am still learning to perceive that way).

The overall message was I could leave if I so chose. I don't/didn't know whether it was going to be by "craft" or not. After making my mental decision to stay instead of leave, we seemed to experience a mental "life review" of sorts. I began to cry. Not vocally but tears were running down my face. I attempted to hide it from my coworkers and finally after glancing over at them I noticed they all had silent tears falling from the eyes. I said that I was sorry and very confused. Around this time we all went out separate ways for lunch and after coming back nothing about the tears or anything else was spoken of.

Two bolded parts.

1.
You wrote "we" - as all Beings in the room - You and your co-workers? How did You knew they've experienced it? Only by noticed later tears of theirs? Have You had an access to their "life reviews"?
And finally - in short, without any private details - what did You exactly ment by "life review"? Could You write more about this experience?

2.
You spoke? Did You actually verbalized this sentence? If yes, what was the reactions of Others? Didi they knew what You were refering to? Did they understood what You were talking about?

A few days later certain non metaphysical events led to me abandoning my job and I've never spoken to (or contacted) any of them about the events of that day.

Question to bolded part - why not? You didn't want to (as an active act of will)? Or it simply "happend" - as everyone goes his/her way without the "need" for contact?

I've have thought about suicide numerous times and I'm not proud of that fact. In all honestly the only thing that prevented me from actually going through with it back then was the effect that choice would have had on those who love me.

You are not alone my Friend in this experience.

I really didn't expect to reply with such a long answer here. The majority of these events have not been pondered over by myself in quite some time.

[b]Thank you for this opportunity, it feels good to talk about these things.[/b] I plan on replying to your other questions too as I'm sure they'll hit on some important areas for me.

/namasalute

First bolded part - as for my standards your reply was quite short

Second bolded part - it is my pleasure/honor/duty.


I would like to add something to all above.

For a long time I wanted to experience what You've described. I've perceived it as some kind of fulfilment of "Self" and never reached further with my thoughts (as "what would be afterwards"). What You've shared showed me how in fact little thoughts I've putted to it and You've disillusioned me in this matter/issue. Thank You.
I can see You are confused and those experienced alienated You - maybe even more that I am alienated at this time. I think that if I were to experienced all this, I would never "get back" to this reality again. I think I would simply go crazy/insane. Now I look at it (not being able to experience it) as form of "protection" of my Self. Quite fascinating point of view for me to be honest

And finally - I do not think that I will be able to help You as You are expecting to be helped/aid. I'm too down-to-earth (with the way I understand my Self). All I can offer are my question in attempt to understand your experiences in scants frames of my understanding. I only hope that my questions will (somehow) help You in answering your questions to your Self. In this process I am merely a tool of your efforts/work and I humbly accept it.

Best I have in me for You.