What are you afraid of (spiritually)?

[Parsons]

Confused, I almost always initially feel that way when greeted by extremely harsh catalyst. But after I have a chance to process it, I oftentimes smile at even the harshest catalyst. I always end up feeling that it must have been a lesson I really needed to learn.

Sometimes I am also assaulted by a bunch of catalyst and I don't get a chance to passively/easily process it. By the end of the day, I am sometimes ready to throw a tantrum or sulk. Those are the days where I actively/manually process the catalyst by going through each one asking myself a question related to each ray (eg, how did this situation effect my red-ray survival? How did this situation effecty orange-ray sense of self? etc). It is often difficult and uncomfortable to get through initially, but a few minutes after I'm done, I feel as though a great weight has been lifted from my shoulders. Sometimes a catalyst will be overlooked and I will remember it days or even weeks later and I will go back and manually process it. I noticed it can have a profound effect on my general disposition towards life.