How I use the third-density illusion

[Adonai One]

If I could stay on this planet for another thousand years in a third-density capacity, I would. I am not here to attempt to transcend it, reach a state of nirvana nor hope for higher purposes. Nope.

In fact, Ra speaks about one transcending the needs of this density:

42.2: ...The catalyst of experience works in order for the learn/teachings of this density to occur. However, if there is seen in the being a response, even if it is simply observed, the entity is still using the catalyst for learn/teaching. The end result is that the catalyst is no longer needed. Thus this density is no longer needed. This is not indifference or objectivity but a finely tuned compassion and love which sees all things as love. This seeing elicits no response due to catalytic reactions.

See bolded. I do not want to be there, ever, in the course of my life. I have decided to submit to humanity's distortions completely and remain within them until they are healed universally, which they may never be in my lifetime.

I want to accept and see love in everything including the distortions that make this species and myself. I want to continuously see myself shaped by catalyst in such a way that I have to accept deeper and deeper parts of my being, not by way of gliding across catalyst knowing that all is inherently well and loved but by still knowing everything is inherently well and loved yet pursuing catalyst to allow myself to face more and more of what I do not like.

I am purposefully causing myself to be emotionally charged for the experience alone. This is my peace. I do not desire the peace of the heavens, of a utopia or a peace requiring life as we know it to be transcended. I want to feel at peace in turmoil and emotional angst, enjoying it, savoring it -- as reeay terms as "masochism."

This is why I am emotional and I am proud of it. I want to use this density for learning/teaching indefinitely as if I will never die. I am going to be shoved back here again by my soul group so I might as well embrace it as if I am here forever.

In summary, everything is inherently at peace and harmony so why not act completely freely even in the face of suffering? Why not embrace suffering as pleasure with the goal of finding greater pleasure in all things, desired and not desired? That is my life philosophy.

Peace.