Reluctant Wanderer

[Cat sleeps on him at night]

Greetings third-density-being,

Thank You for reading my story and offering your insights. No, I don't mind being called "Csohan", I'm sure I've been called worse things.

Your perspective on why I remember nothing of prior incarnations is interesting. I once thought that this lack was "proof" that I did not exist before being born into this life but it may be more likely the data resides at a frequency band my current 3D "receiver" simply can't pick up.

I think you are correct about my earliest memory, it does seem like it was an important goal for me to get here. The analogy that comes to me is that of a weary business traveler who, having flown twenty-odd hours or so from who-knows-where to finally find himself in his hotel room in a strange city, drops his bags on the floor and sighs "Whew, I made it, I'm here." The irony is that the REAL work begins the next day as he engages in whatever business transactions he came to perform.

So could I be an inter-dimensional "business traveler" who crossed numerous non-physical continents and oceans to be here in this body at this time? It's certainly intriguing to look at it that way. From the hints I have gotten, it sounds as if my "business" here is just starting.

In answer to your question, yes I do meditate frequently but oddly enough, most guidance and inspiration seems to come to me in a waking state (often while exercising, perhaps because the left brain is occupied somehow which keeps it from butting in) or indirectly, thru or via others. I do get some interesting data via meditation but rarely anything profound. It's possible my expectations for meditiation are misplaced or maybe I'm simply doing it wrong... However, as I've been wont to do lately, I read some of the Law of One daily and quite often the answer to a question I've been mulling is found in the material. Here is something I found the other day when musing over my apparent personal lack of psychic abilities:

75.24 There are many Wanderers whom you may call adepts who do no conscious work in the present incarnation. It is a matter of attention. One may be a fine catcher of your game sphere, but if the eye is not turned as this sphere is tossed then perchance it will pass the entity by. If it turned its eyes upon the sphere, catching would be easy. In the case of Wanderers which seek to recapitulate the degree of adeptness which each had acquired previous to this life experience, we may note that even after the forgetting process has been penetrated there is still the yellow-ray activated body which does not respond as does the adept which is of a green- or blue-ray activated body. Thusly, you may see the inevitability of frustrations and confusion due to the inherent difficulties of manipulating the finer forces of consciousness through the chemical apparatus of the yellow-ray activated body.

So I had to laugh, perhaps they are trying to tell me I simply stink at manipulating my 3D body.

I note that Ra also alluded to the idea of some adepts' work being unconscious as you suggested. I'll have to mull that over some more.

Love/Light to you...