[Updated]

[Brittany]

I am writing this post because I am weary of answering the same questions on a repeated basis. I feel I have arrived at a place where a public statement is in order.

At the end of last year, after a traumatic psychological event, my entire belief system crumbled around me. When I finally emerged from that wreckage I realized my path had changed, or, perhaps, I simply realized the path I've been walking all along. Over the past months I have educated myself in the fundamentals of Left Hand Path philosophy and aligned myself to this path. I have made my way into an appropriate social order and now study to advance within it.

I can honestly say I've never been happier. This is not the appropriate venue for me to share my personal philosophy, so I will simply say that the work is incredibly difficult and incredibly satisfying. I tentatively stepped into a world I expected to be full of heaviness and hate, and instead I find myself in possession of a certain light-heartedness and genuine joy. Love is a much more fascinating phenomenon when you don't feel obligated to feel it. I at last feel like myself.

Regarding those who have asked of my "agenda", it is to increase in wisdom and understanding of the ways of Self Love. You won't see me running for office any time soon, nor attacking hippies, nor joining the Illuminati. Such endeavors are trivial to me and the majority of my time is simply spent studying, conversing with teachers and practicing the things I have learned in a practical sense.

I find myself pulling away from concepts like harvest, focusing much more on the present moment. My post-incarnative destination matters less to me than my desire to do work I find fulfilling while I still have the life in my body to do so. This life no longer seems like a burden, but a precious opportunity to understand a being I have spent far too long injustly hating.

Perhaps my views will change in the future. Thus far I've had a hard time holding onto any belief system for more than a few years. At this moment, however, this is where my heart lies, and this moment is the most important moment of my life. I do not know when or if I will be back, so I leave this piece of advice, which I feel could apply to any path:

Obtaining a deep, objective awareness of Self is the cornerstone, foundation and most of the house of seeking. Know who you are and why, what you want and why, and the rest will fall into place of its own accord. No attempt at polarization will be effective if the action performed is not truly desired and accepted by the Self. There is no system of percentages that can hide the things in your heart, so know it well, and follow it wisely.