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[third-density-being]

Hello Brittany,

Thank You for your Openness. As for your Choice, its utterly acceptable for/by me. In some way I admire your determination, as Love-Of-Self Path is very demanding and strongly based on the power of One's Will. Either way I don't think anyone here will discriminate You because of your third density's Choice.

I my Self was thinking of this path but deep inside there's just too much compassion in me and there's simply no imaginable scenario, in which I am capable of "gaining" anything, while hurting/diminishing Other-Self. No matter how deeply (as well subjectively, as objectively) I was hurt/diminished by Other-Self. I simply do not possess such "mechanism" in my Self.

Nevertheless I was paying some attention to Ra's descriptions of higher Service-to-Self densities. One quote is really thought-worth:

(7.14)
Questioner: What is the density of the Orion group?

Ra: I am Ra. Like the Confederation, the densities of the mass
consciousnesses which comprise that group are varied. There are a very few
third density, a larger number of fourth density, a similarly large number of
fifth density, and very few sixth-density entities comprising this
organization. Their numbers are perhaps one-tenth ours at any point in the
space/time continuum as the problem of spiritual entropy causes them to
experience constant disintegration of their social memory complexes. Their
power is the same as ours. The Law of One blinks neither at the light nor
the darkness, but is available for service to others and service to self.
However, service to others results in service to self, thus preserving and
further harmonizing the distortions of those entities seeking intelligent
infinity through these disciplines.

Those seeking intelligent infinity through the use of service to self create the
same amount of power but, as we said, have constant difficulty because of
the concept of separation which is implicit in the manifestations of the
service to self which involve power over others. This weakens and eventually
disintegrates the energy collected by such mind/body/spirit complexes who
call the Orion group and the social memory complexes which comprise the
Orion group.

It should be noted, carefully pondered, and accepted, that the Law of One
is available to any social memory complex which has decided to strive
together for any seeking of purpose, be it service to others or service to self.
The laws, which are the primal distortions of the Law of One, then are
placed into operation and the illusion of space/time is used as a medium for
the development of the results of those choices freely made. Thus all entities
learn, no matter what they seek. All learn the same, some rapidly, some
slowly.

Choice is utterly yours and should be freely made.

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(...)
This life no longer seems like a burden, but a precious opportunity to understand a being I have spent far too long injustly hating.
(..)

This would indicatre some Self-Healing necessities. Because as You wrote your-Self, it is necessary to know Self to do Work. I guess at some point "knowing = healing" Self.

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In many imaginary scenarios Service-to-Self path is presented as filled with "hate". "Hate", as I understand it, is translated "Love-to-Self" for Other-Selves. But even label "hate" doesn't cover it - it is to refuse to acknowledge Other-Selves as Creator. This is very deep path into Self with no One to relate to, no One to trust.
I hope that on your path Feelings of actual "Love" to Self will dominate, rather than "hate" to Other-Selves.

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Best I have in me for You.