Remaining Connected

[Plenum]

Unfortunately,...I seem to cycle out of it. Something seems to happen, or perhaps my actions may cause the perceived loss of the connection. This will last a few days, then it slowly returns.

what breaks our peace of mind is the effect of catalyst - which is a prompting for further learning.

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Friends, I realize I have a lot to learn. I started this journey after an awakening of sorts in Dec 2012. For a period after that, there was this sort of great "pink cloud" feeling, but life seemed to crowd in again, and I long for that spiritual "closeness" again.

that was a remarkable time for many folks!

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It returns in cycles, but the connection seems so fragile. Have you experienced this? It is so painful when that connection is gone. Having had these periodic experiences with it, makes the days when it's "dimmed", very unproductive and depressing.

I think these cycles of feeling 'connected' and then 'disconnected' are relatively common. Ra did reference something about (paraphrase) - accepting negative or retrograde cycles without undue notice, and that in those 'dimmed' states, there is opportunity to further examine the self and one's reactions to feeling disconnected.

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Do you think this may be a form of catalyst?

yes, I think it is. The dissatisfaction is a way of keeping our seeking directed - like an opportunity to apply our Will to what we want our lives to be - which is more and more harmoniously connected, in deeper and deeper ways.