Forcing yourself to love

[Adonai One]

I feel there is no "pushing" that is truly justified nor provides growth.

I've seen many people in my life who have "pushed" themselves in school, jobs and relationships and they have merely spent decades becoming unconscious of their emotions through a blockage of the yellow-ray inpourings of the soul.

Once the soul has been made very unconscious to the person, it's often very difficult to find compassionate emotion for the self and others: One becomes emotionally dead. One doesn't know what they want anymore and when they try to say they are something, they are saying what they raped themselves into being, which inevitably must be accepted as a valid part of one's soul in a long-term healing capacity. It's not fun. This is the type of resistance that forms the majority of the distortion of the soul and can be said to be not needed when one realizes the hardships of this density are no longer desired nor needed. Once this step of realization is done, one steps into green-ray in love for others and self as one being, one social memory complex.

Pushing oneself: I don't feel this is growth. I feel this is self-denial and attempting to form oneself into a persona and not a person.