Depression?

[isis]

I told my stepmom how I was feeling and she said "Tom get that suicidal out of ur head".

I don't have a good control over my thoughts. They stream up from my subconscious.

But there must be a reason I keep having them. And sometimes they can last a minute while I dwell on them.

My therapist says I'm not supposed to feel manic, that it is bad. So I'm not supposed to feel good.

imo, it's ok to think/fantasize about suicide; it's just something to think about that makes u feel good. imo if u kno in your heart that u'd never do it then u should feel free to think about it all u'd like if that brings u comfort

endings are a good thing

imo suicide is a blessing. i can imagine a reality where there's no such thing - where having the option to kill yourself wasn't an option...imo a lot animals are in that predicament & we are all in that predicament at 1 point in our lives: in infancy...some things are best forgotten...

i'm thankful i'm currently in a reality where i get to kno (or at least think) there's an exit that i can go thru anytime i'd like