Catalyst growing in intensity,...

[Jade]

I don't think hiking to get away is a STS endeavor. You should feel blessed in taking that time for yourself. You are able to recharge your batteries by experiencing the energy of 2D life in such a way - which in the end makes you better prepared to handle whatever catalyst your family decides to generate. So in the end, taking that time for yourself is service to the all, because you can be in a better place to defuse tensions at home. I hope you feel encouraged to take that time for yourself more - I know Q'uo especially stresses that nature is that way that many entities meditate, and we all know how important a good, regular meditation schedule is.

I think very often when we are angry with others, it is about something about ourself that we haven't forgiven. Noodling that out can be difficult, as it's often something fairly minor we've been beating ourselves up over. So feel encouraged to meditate!! Not to the detriment of the family structure, but for its benefit. The best outcome is that someone else sees that you're spending time in this endeavor, and that your peace of mind is greater, and they emulate your actions. I meditated (almost in secret!) for over a year before my husband, who I'm very close with, jumped on board. Meditation is a life skill that we don't teach on a societal level (yet!), so expressing to others that these tools are available is a great service.