The Dream Thread

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I had a dream where I was at a public pool and I went up on the 10 meter high diving board. I was very confident while climbing up there but once I got to the top it felt much higher than 10 feet. I got very anxious and very afraid of jumping into the water from that height so I started thinking of ways I could get down. I couldn't climb back down the stairs because, according to dream logic, it was illegal and I would be arrested if I did that. Meanwhile my friends were shouting at me that I could do it and that they believed in me, etc. I didn't believe in me though and I thought "there has to be some way I can get out of this," and that thought was so powerful that I realized I was in a dream and woke up instantly.

My first reaction on waking up was disappointment, I should have just jumped! And then I realized that this was a memory from when I was younger, somewhere between 8-10 years old maybe? I had climbed up on the high diving board and had gotten scared and climbed back down, which was a huge faux pas. I remember being very embarrassed and it was a while before I tried that again.

The thing that I got from the dream was that when I woke up, the anxiety dissipated immediately, and I realize I don't get that anxious about things anymore. If I was in that situation these day I would probably just jump. the other thing I realized is that my friends and family really do believe in me, which is something I've always had trouble accepting.