12-02-2014, 06:04 PM
Aha It's like you took a huge hammer and hit a dozen nails on the head at once. I have certainly experienced those exact kind of situations and had the responsibility for the suffering of another placed in my hands their own own lack of desire to hold their power. I just don't know how to not care, or rather, accept that I can't really do anything to help.
It makes me really reluctant to go out and be a "helping force" in the world because it does seem in many cases to almost be an expectation of entitlement. I want to help people, but the most frustrating thing is when people take your help and then throw it in your face. I know I'm supposed to have no expectations of outcome when helping people, but it's hard to want to approach people when I do have an underlying fear that I am just causing more trouble for myself and for them.
It makes me really reluctant to go out and be a "helping force" in the world because it does seem in many cases to almost be an expectation of entitlement. I want to help people, but the most frustrating thing is when people take your help and then throw it in your face. I know I'm supposed to have no expectations of outcome when helping people, but it's hard to want to approach people when I do have an underlying fear that I am just causing more trouble for myself and for them.