Free Will - a paradox in the game?

[Enyiah]

Okay, I'm reading the Ra material for the first time and I'm only at session 13 which mentions references of the steps of Creation and the introduction of ''freedom of will'' in step 4.
At this point in my life I have come to the conclusion that freedom of will only serves to create problems and is probably the root cause of all distortion.
In my journey, I have come to a point where I'm no longer interested in *exploring* free will and just want to find my way back HOME! This world is very painful for me to live in. I am led to believe that my purpose of being here has a lot to do with Healing.
The free will business feels like a trap used by the ones in service to self who have more use of esoteric knowledge in order enslave us.
In short, the Game being played out is already biased and unfair given the advantage of the ones in service to self have over the ignorant peoples.
I'm trying really hard to find my purpose/calling and wanting to come to and understanding of my journey. I want to be an advocate for the positive side, for the people who have been mercilessly abused and enslaved against their right of *free will*!