If I hear you correctly Enyiah, you're saying you're not interested in self-serving actions and instead seek inner-discipline so as to rise above the material realm. This is all well and good not in contradiction with the concept of free will.
Free will in the positive sense is the ability to think for the self, to make mistakes, and to let others be free to do the same. Free will in this sense is the fundamental nature of healing. So ironically, cultivating inner-discipline is symbolically creating space for others to move..the opposite being restriction and non-movement.
*Edit. Disharmony comes into being when things lie outside of our control. We have all sorts of expectations of others to think and act in the ways we want them to, and it's quite surprising how much of our interaction with others revolves around attempting to align others with our thoughts (control). So allowing others to be themselves - letting the infinite express itself to you - and seek guidance when guidance is sought, is the nature of allowing the spirit to be free.
Free will in the positive sense is the ability to think for the self, to make mistakes, and to let others be free to do the same. Free will in this sense is the fundamental nature of healing. So ironically, cultivating inner-discipline is symbolically creating space for others to move..the opposite being restriction and non-movement.
*Edit. Disharmony comes into being when things lie outside of our control. We have all sorts of expectations of others to think and act in the ways we want them to, and it's quite surprising how much of our interaction with others revolves around attempting to align others with our thoughts (control). So allowing others to be themselves - letting the infinite express itself to you - and seek guidance when guidance is sought, is the nature of allowing the spirit to be free.