The Language Barrier in the Ra Material

[Bring4th_Austin]

In all honesty, there are still large chunks of the Ra Material I don't understand at all, particularly the scientific/mathematical descriptions of certain concepts. Even the simpler parts come off as somewhat flat to me, like a series of beads floating in space with no string connecting them. I know some people read Ra and feel an instant resonance, or even a love at first sight type of vibe, but to me, on the surface, it's an odd mish-mash of awkwardly-worded material.

This is something that stirs up some of my own personal distortions and insecurities surrounding the material. There is such a massive contrast between what I see in the material and what 99.99% of the world probably sees in its words. And it isn't a matter of intelligence or comprehension of language, as many intelligent and linguistically talented people, such as Yera, simply do not see what I see when they read Ra's words. And most of those people probably would not be as understanding towards the material as Yera.

I recently re-read an early rejection letter received by L/L Research by a publisher and there was a part which makes me laugh but also makes me sad because of this insecurity I have. It says:

No entity that wreaks such havoc with the English language is going to ingratiate himself with the general reading public. This has all the denseness of THE NEW ENGLAND JOURNAL OF MEDICINE, or the JOURNAL OF ENGLISH AND GERMAN PHILOLOGY, or a Ph.D. dissertation on epistemology - but it's also so void of information - of content - that it makes a reader positively squirm with impatience.

I obviously don't blame the critic offering his very straight-forward truth, especially considering that I've seen many people deride the material on similar (and less eloquently put) terms. I've seen it described as LSD-addled ramblings, a scattering of meaningless new age jargon, and other such kindless words. 

This reception with the massive majority of the public brings up catalyst in me that makes me feel like such an outsider, and makes me feel insecure about the magnetism I feel towards this material. I feel a small amount of humiliation in the fact that this text remains the most significant, poetic, and ingeniously crafted collection of words I have ever read. The Law of One really cracked my spiritual shell, but even after I expanded my spiritual search and continued reading spiritual and philosophical texts from varying sages, masters, and cultures, there is absolutely nothing I have read that speaks so eloquently of higher truths than the Law of One. Really, nothing has come close.

What will likely remain the most significant thing to me in my own journey and world would be ridiculed by the scholars and intellectuals of our society, and there is just something about that which makes me feel crappy. I know that, ideally, it shouldn't affect me. I wish I had the confidence to say that I didn't care what the rest of the world thinks about my own beliefs. But there is a desire in me to integrate into society in such a way that I feel my affinity for the Law of One would prohibit.

This post is sort of tangential and personal, but I think it ultimately comes down to that language barrier. Ra spoke in such a way that a vast majority of the population here on Earth will see absolutely nothing worthy in their words. Why do I see it? What is it I am seeing? How can something be so absolutely significant to me, and speak on such an elevated level, yet look like just word salad to so many others (many who possess greater intelligence than I do)?