The Dream Thread

[isis]

wow creepy

yeah ... I've had a lot of eff'ed up dreams, starting when I was a kid. it's amazing I was so skeptical for so long of any kind of spiritual topics/afterlife considering how much absolutely bizarre stuff has happened in my life.

screw it, I'll drop the worst of my dreams on y'all.

I was 6. I had a dream that the devil was like, doing some kind of ritual with me. He had me lying on some kind of ornate sacrificial-looking altar. he picked my body with only his hands, and started to lift me, and raised me higher and higher. I got super freaked out, and willed myself to wake up.

I woke up and I remember being so relieved, I'm like "WHEW thank god I'm awake it was just a dream--"

and then, oh what's that feeling?

it's my body falling back into the mattress!

now maybe I'd jumped in the dream, and I realized I was awake as I was still in the air and blah blah blah ... maybe all that, who knows.

it still freaked me the hell out. I didn't tell anybody about it tho.

i think that's so messed up that you got disturbing dreams at such a young age. i can't imagine why a loving creator would allow that. things like that, & all the disturbing things that happen in this reality, make it so hard for me to believe that the one infinite creator, who we are, is solely a loving being behind the illusion/veil. i think it's abundantly clear that the creator(destroyer) is half light & half dark - half loving & half evil.

i don't recall any dreams from my childhood but i'd frequently get told that i would sit up in my sleep for long periods & that i would laugh a lot. but in my adult years i've had so many nightmares & i still get them on a regular basis. i just had nightmare scenes last night. in one scene i was looking in the mirror & one of my eyes wasn't there - all i could see was the white part of it. & in another part the sea-level was rising rapidly & i was feeling so much terror & feeling certain that i was about to be swept away by a tsunami.