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[Lighthead]

Do you have the means to *leave* Turkey?  Maybe head north into the EU or someplace else not quite so religiously-focused?  I suspect a change of scene might do you a lot of good.

One of the hardest things, I've found, is discovering that you've changed while nothing else around you has.  In my case, at least, heading out and going someplace NEW was a good solution.

Hope this helps!

I really agree. That seems like the best possible solution if you have the means, as stated. That was my instinctive reaction. This is one of the first replies I've seen. I'm looking forward to reading whether this is a viable option for you.