04-05-2015, 08:18 PM
So I finally got around to reading this thread once my life is full of magic. How can I explain this? I keep waning in and out of this mindstate. I feel the veil is thinning in my head or I enter a state of nothingness. My ego gradually peels away and I am left in a very fearful state.
Without the ego there is no fear, but what keeps happening in my mind is that i feel a pulling away and my ego is killed maybe 70%. I go blank. I close my eyes and I see nothingness of the void - no thoughts no images - simply an emotion of fear is all that is left.
So how do I go about functioning in this state? I am still trying to that out. It seems this is my mind at work trying to soften my ego. If I let go with my eyes closed I enter the void. Of course I cannot do this the same with my eyes open. The only thing that helps is sending metta to the point of fear in my body. And then it totally leaves me. <3 <3 <3
[serious] i'll make a bit of humor out of this:
Without the ego there is no fear, but what keeps happening in my mind is that i feel a pulling away and my ego is killed maybe 70%. I go blank. I close my eyes and I see nothingness of the void - no thoughts no images - simply an emotion of fear is all that is left.
So how do I go about functioning in this state? I am still trying to that out. It seems this is my mind at work trying to soften my ego. If I let go with my eyes closed I enter the void. Of course I cannot do this the same with my eyes open. The only thing that helps is sending metta to the point of fear in my body. And then it totally leaves me. <3 <3 <3
[serious] i'll make a bit of humor out of this:
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