Minimally Harvestable

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I like your point about unconditional love. I seem to struggle with that. I seem to only feel love for others that show vulnerability and weakness. But when people seem to only want to get their way and could care less about others, I struggle with feeling love for those types of people. Even when they are people that are from an "oppressed" group.

If you ask me, that is more like sympathy or empathy, which is of course related to love but as you say not always 'unconditional love'.

Consider this:

All seeking for power is rooted in powerlessness.
All seeking for love is rooted in lack of love.
All seeking for wisdom is rooted in ignorance.
All seeking for beauty is in feelings of ugliness.
All seeking for control is in a feeling of being out of control.

You see then, that those who only want their way and could care less about others are the ones who are most intoxicated by the illusion. Those whom need the most sympathy for they are consumed by their lacks and their desires. I am fascinated by villains and anti-hero types so I always look at their motivation. Pretty much all 'evil attitudes' are rooted in some kind of perceived lack - whether that lack is a result of something the person sees missing from themselves, or a lack of that which one feels entitled to. In the end, these people are the greatest slaves for they have enslaved themselves.

Have you ever watched a film with a villain whom became a villain because of horrible things that happened to them? When you think of the villain, do you only think of them after they 'became evil' or do you consider 'why' they are doing what they are doing? There are opportunities for compassion everywhere, not just in the obvious, the meek and the mild, but truly even the hardest of hearts are holding on to the deepest levels of pain. It is these hearts that I feel could use some love.

I also am fascinated by villains, but I'm not sure if I've deconstructed their motivation in quite the way you have. After reading the Ra material, I seem to always struggle with this question: how does one differentiate between someone who is harvestable STS and who is sane with someone who is a negative-type of person who is sick and most likely had a traumatic event happened to them that influenced them to be that way? If the harvestable STS person has consciously decided to serve themselves, wouldn't that make them sick in universal, greater terms? My case for them being sick in greater terms is because they have chosen to delude themselves with the idea that they are separate from everything.

I just get so confused when I think of Ra's concept of STS. I can easily understand STO, but I get easily caught when I try to understand the essence of that which is STS. I find it hard to understand what makes it a viable concept. I think that when I finally come to understand it, I will have unlocked the door to something greater within myself.