Minimally Harvestable

[Aion]

Yes, yes, the "all is well" broken record.

I apologize if I seem particularly exasperated by this notion as it has been rammed in to my head endlessly for years, especially on this forum and I don't know how to tell people that I am well aware of this. I am well aware of the unity of all things, well aware of the "Great Perfection" of all things and everything is perfect and blah, blah, blah. I get it.

I have been to unity, I have experienced total bliss, release and detachment from all things. I have felt absolute peace and experienced being a complete, in the moment, Creator. I get it.

None of that does anything towards helping me to know myself. You could perhaps say that while numerous people are seeking to rest in the state of bliss and all is well, I am actually going in the opposite direction. I found peace within myself, I found its source, I see the One, the Creator within me. Now I seek war, chaos, pain, these things inside of me that I may know them truly.

For me, I want to know why the Creator suffers. The peace, love, harmony and unity of the Creator is easy, clearly to be seen.

War, chaos, pain is part of this love, unity and harmony. 

You might see it as a broken record, but you are the one who seems not to accept himself and as such attract this saying. By blaming yourself, you blame all as all has done your deeds through what you incarnated.

I do not place blame, neither on myself nor on anybody else. It is the work of accepting myself that has brought me to all of these elements of myself which needed to be accepted. It hasn't been easy to accept these things about myself, I assure you. I believe that our light and our dark need to be accepted. It has been challenging on both ends.

I do not know how to explain it to you in a way you will understand because it seems you as an individual have no desire for responsibility, purpose or such apparent restrictions. As you would say, and I would as well, this is perfectly well, all is well. Rather, I do not know how to show you or express that the path I am on is one consciously, intentionally chosen. I am not subject to the whims of any other than myself. I know it is an 'act' of the Creator, I know it is an illusion, I know I don't 'have' to do it, or anything for that matter.

The point is that I am choosing. I could certainly repeat along-side you all the same platitudes, but why would I if that is not my focus? Accepting that all is well, everything is perfect, doesn't mean the end of life and experience. Perhaps it is rather that you do not understand why someone would so choose to apparently explore this avenue.