05-13-2015, 12:10 PM
I wish I knew so much about my pasts. Or if I even have a soul mate or twin flame incarnate.
Yet I'm basically like a few have said, I'm neutral in the sense of being calm and feeling almost empty of desire beyond Living and Loving. As a child I had only those two desires, to Live and Love. I don't want to do anything else. Yet having found it so hard to do, I've taken up oddities in my handling.
I feel like a mirror sometimes. Like I'm just a very shallow personality, with a huge depth underneath of being that is capable of infinity, but limited to this incarnation in a very specific way as to simply be whatever I need to be for the moment at hand. I guess I'm trying to say I'm more empath than anything else. When I was operating from an Open Heart and performing Work in Consciousness between the aid of actually learning nonverbal psychology, seeing the invisible way of energy, intuition, and the discipline of the personality I as partaking in at the time. I felt like I was nearing the actual providing of being the Creator as closely as I could.
Which didn't end well for my personality, which already being shallow, once I stopped practicing, almost disintegrated... (Felt like I was literally losing all sense of understanding of everything, nothing made sense...) Thankfully, I had...A lot of aid at that time, looking back I'm certain now.
...Jeez. I owe my friends, my guides, a lot of...Whatever extremely nice thing I can do for them in return for helping me so fervently in this incarnation. So effectively too. I really need to thank them more for all of these things hah.
Yet I'm basically like a few have said, I'm neutral in the sense of being calm and feeling almost empty of desire beyond Living and Loving. As a child I had only those two desires, to Live and Love. I don't want to do anything else. Yet having found it so hard to do, I've taken up oddities in my handling.
I feel like a mirror sometimes. Like I'm just a very shallow personality, with a huge depth underneath of being that is capable of infinity, but limited to this incarnation in a very specific way as to simply be whatever I need to be for the moment at hand. I guess I'm trying to say I'm more empath than anything else. When I was operating from an Open Heart and performing Work in Consciousness between the aid of actually learning nonverbal psychology, seeing the invisible way of energy, intuition, and the discipline of the personality I as partaking in at the time. I felt like I was nearing the actual providing of being the Creator as closely as I could.
Which didn't end well for my personality, which already being shallow, once I stopped practicing, almost disintegrated... (Felt like I was literally losing all sense of understanding of everything, nothing made sense...) Thankfully, I had...A lot of aid at that time, looking back I'm certain now.
...Jeez. I owe my friends, my guides, a lot of...Whatever extremely nice thing I can do for them in return for helping me so fervently in this incarnation. So effectively too. I really need to thank them more for all of these things hah.
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