Well who do you blame? The One? Because the One is the only thing that choses and that suffers.
I do agree in a way with what you're saying. I've said multiple times : "Why was nothingness not well?", it was very much in this sense. But yeah stupid Creator wanted to know Itself...
The only thing actual Free Will implies is that the Creator will know Itself. That means that He will go through anything He creates. From a Creator's perspective, the whole of reality is nothing but a dream projection you create for yourself to interact with. So why is sufferings justifiable? Well it is not necessarily but we created sufferings without doubt else we would not experience it.
What we are told is that each portion of the Creator will grow in awareness toward unconditionnal Love and then move on to the Greater Orders, existence is an infinite adventure that never stops changing shape into more and more glorious ways. Without sufferings the Creator would be lacking and it is a small frame of infinity.
About how you feel toward yourself, I may propose that your feelings are not of your current 3D ego but rather something you channel from your higher self. You've done things and hurted yourself and were in need of healing. 3D is an indirect way to heal ourselves. All of these feelings that you hate might be much more worse and of much bigger proportion if you were not asleep down here. What if this hellish life actually weights less than your existence unveiled? Would you still think it is pointless?
I do agree in a way with what you're saying. I've said multiple times : "Why was nothingness not well?", it was very much in this sense. But yeah stupid Creator wanted to know Itself...
The only thing actual Free Will implies is that the Creator will know Itself. That means that He will go through anything He creates. From a Creator's perspective, the whole of reality is nothing but a dream projection you create for yourself to interact with. So why is sufferings justifiable? Well it is not necessarily but we created sufferings without doubt else we would not experience it.
What we are told is that each portion of the Creator will grow in awareness toward unconditionnal Love and then move on to the Greater Orders, existence is an infinite adventure that never stops changing shape into more and more glorious ways. Without sufferings the Creator would be lacking and it is a small frame of infinity.
About how you feel toward yourself, I may propose that your feelings are not of your current 3D ego but rather something you channel from your higher self. You've done things and hurted yourself and were in need of healing. 3D is an indirect way to heal ourselves. All of these feelings that you hate might be much more worse and of much bigger proportion if you were not asleep down here. What if this hellish life actually weights less than your existence unveiled? Would you still think it is pointless?