Learning to Love Indifference

[Aion]

Yeah, I've had the eternal abyss type of experience, just, nothingness.

Is it like a dissociative experience? Ego death?

I guess that's one way to describe it, it's like an awareness that is only aware of the fact that it is aware.

I wonder if that would be more satisfying than my normal, boring experience where I deal with significant catalyst. I feel I have no freedom. I am trapped.

There's not really any sense of satisfaction or anything. Just being there.