Learning to Love Indifference

[mjlabadia]

  Joe!! 
   I have just read your introduction post entitled "Tired Philosopher". I wish I had read it earlier. So much for us all to share, say, and balance together.
  
   I tried to think of something "profound" to say as a welcome, but when I consciously "tried", everything sounded so hollow, histrionic, and cliche. 

  So please allow me to use this thread to say this, in all earnestness:

  My Dear "quiet and timid", "docile and anxious", "doubtful and uncertain",.........friend.

  Behold,...........your Brothers and Sisters in suffering,......metaphysically naked before you,.......with all of OUR distortions,......with all of OUR doubts and uncertainties,...............with all of OUR failures,............and rejoice!

  For at times, in periods of confusion and self doubt, we too mistook our GENTLENESS for "timidity".

  For at times, we too are FROZEN by cruelties unfolding before us, .....to us,...... and even by us,.......and we too mistake our CONFUSED INACTION to something so foreign to our ever-present but veiled life "meme",.......and we call it "docility".

 For at times, we too mistake our FEAR of JUDGEMENT, FEAR of HUMILIATION, FEAR of REJECTION over our imagined or Other-Self assigned inadequacies, and call it "anxiety".

 And,.....at times,.......we too mistake our crushing, microscopic, SELF PERFECTIONISM,...........our honorable (but often difficult in execution) DESIRE to TO  DO THE RIGHT THING,..(BUT SOMETIMES ILL EQUIPPED TO),......we too mistake it,.......and call it "doubtfulness and uncertainty".

 And Joe,......Oh..... The Scars! The lashing out and / or our stumbling under the crushing weight and pain of it all?..................Your Brothers and Sisters here,.......we too at times, punish ourselves endlessly,.......by calling it "failing at life". 

 So my dear friend,...... along with all of us Non PHARISEE / DOWNTRODDEN / TAX COLLECTORS / PROSTITUTES / BEGGARS / THIEVES / self described "failures at life",..........(The preferred company of at least one very enlightened and awakened entity in 3D history!)......................I ask you to accept my my "quiet and timid"....."docile and anxious"......"doubtful and uncertain"......HAND IN WELCOME.

 And to please allow me,.....you,......us,........we,...... Brothers and Sisters here on Bring4th,....to balance my/your/our....... "failure of friends" / "failure of work" / "FAILURE OF LIFE".........

 ....with acceptance, with patience, with seeking, with striving for the light, and the many mistakes we may make on the way.

                                                                                            Jamie

  P.S.-Joe, while proof reading this thread it appears a little gushy and cheesy to me. 
  BUT,...I'm leaving it as written the first time,.....because it honestly was a huge "stream of consciousness" outburst from my heart. 
  Please forgive any sent of Cheddar.