06-02-2015, 05:40 PM
Hi Joe,
Thank you for your ideas and identification.
So,......I noticed something Joe,....and it may or may not mean anything.
You had the strength,and motivation in this environment to write a fantastic response to my reply. I wonder if looking at the difference between the two situations may help both of us, and even others.
It appears, that the blocking energy,.....(whatever it may be.),........is not as strong for you when writing on the forum.
That post is an excellent stream of consciousness on your part.
In the post you appear very engaged with me,....and there appears in all of your longer posts a sense of cathartic release.
The thoughts are cogent, and on point. The posts are "REAL" communication and connection.
Now, this next question is very subjective,.......
What feels different about posting here? Joe,...this might be important. What FEELS different about this environment, (FOR YOU), that seems to free up your creative thought process? Or maybe better to call it your consciousness stream.
What feels different enough here to allow you to fully engage me and others.
Do you see where I'm steering us? I see some similarities in our respective "memes". I see a similar freeing up of the blocking energy when we are "working" with others in THIS environment.
I'm truly asking this as a seeking. Sort of like that silly theory I have about all of us having some pieces from each others "Cosmic Puzzle".
I'm attempting to compare our "puzzle pieces", to see if we can figure out where ours might fit, and help us understand more about how to ease some of my/yours/our suffering on this issue.
I am a creative type personality also,...the details not important right now.
I understand intimately the issues you're suffering with regarding your art. The only coping skills I had developed when active in my art where chemical.
That clearly didn't work for me.
Joe, for the most part I am able to "present" very well. I have a good reputation as an engineer,......I have to travel around the world in my field,....which presents it's difficulties. I have to interface with people of different cultures,.. and spend a lot of time in military environments.
NOBODY sees the train wreck I really am. Everything is PRESENTED,.... "high and tight",........."sh#@ together",......"solid as a rock." That's my reputation,...that's my mask,...........that's my interface with the "Great Out There".
But I'm really still the awkward 8 year old boy,.....playing with radios in his cellar.
So,.....what allows us to feel safe enough to be a fallible human HERE?
I have this feeling there are some answers for at least part of this if we can get some insight on the differences in the environment.
Regarding Sexual Energy Transfer,.....I agree. I see the difference in Michele,....I see the difference in myself. For a good 24 hours.
However,.....in my experience the transfer during "hook-ups" only left me drained. Big difference for me with a partner when compared to acquaintance/random/solo.
Maybe different for you or others.
Jamie
Thank you for your ideas and identification.
So,......I noticed something Joe,....and it may or may not mean anything.
You had the strength,and motivation in this environment to write a fantastic response to my reply. I wonder if looking at the difference between the two situations may help both of us, and even others.
It appears, that the blocking energy,.....(whatever it may be.),........is not as strong for you when writing on the forum.
That post is an excellent stream of consciousness on your part.
In the post you appear very engaged with me,....and there appears in all of your longer posts a sense of cathartic release.
The thoughts are cogent, and on point. The posts are "REAL" communication and connection.
Now, this next question is very subjective,.......
What feels different about posting here? Joe,...this might be important. What FEELS different about this environment, (FOR YOU), that seems to free up your creative thought process? Or maybe better to call it your consciousness stream.
What feels different enough here to allow you to fully engage me and others.
Do you see where I'm steering us? I see some similarities in our respective "memes". I see a similar freeing up of the blocking energy when we are "working" with others in THIS environment.
I'm truly asking this as a seeking. Sort of like that silly theory I have about all of us having some pieces from each others "Cosmic Puzzle".
I'm attempting to compare our "puzzle pieces", to see if we can figure out where ours might fit, and help us understand more about how to ease some of my/yours/our suffering on this issue.
I am a creative type personality also,...the details not important right now.
I understand intimately the issues you're suffering with regarding your art. The only coping skills I had developed when active in my art where chemical.
That clearly didn't work for me.
Joe, for the most part I am able to "present" very well. I have a good reputation as an engineer,......I have to travel around the world in my field,....which presents it's difficulties. I have to interface with people of different cultures,.. and spend a lot of time in military environments.
NOBODY sees the train wreck I really am. Everything is PRESENTED,.... "high and tight",........."sh#@ together",......"solid as a rock." That's my reputation,...that's my mask,...........that's my interface with the "Great Out There".
But I'm really still the awkward 8 year old boy,.....playing with radios in his cellar.
So,.....what allows us to feel safe enough to be a fallible human HERE?
I have this feeling there are some answers for at least part of this if we can get some insight on the differences in the environment.
Regarding Sexual Energy Transfer,.....I agree. I see the difference in Michele,....I see the difference in myself. For a good 24 hours.
However,.....in my experience the transfer during "hook-ups" only left me drained. Big difference for me with a partner when compared to acquaintance/random/solo.
Maybe different for you or others.
Jamie