Do we get more out of suffering?

[Minyatur]

I suffer because I think of doing bad things and harming another. And it gets pretty intense and vivid in my visualization. I need to learn to love this side of myself. The further I go into the veil, the more dark parts of me come to the surface.

I do think it is not something that just is for no reason and as such needs to be understood. If you think of these things, it is because you have suffered. 

Thing is this earth can be both heaven and hell. When we came here, we prepared ourselves for the experiment we thought would be useful to us.