Do we get more out of suffering?

[Lighthead]

I suffer because I think of doing bad things and harming another. And it gets pretty intense and vivid in my visualization. I need to learn to love this side of myself. The further I go into the veil, the more dark parts of me come to the surface.

You should try meditating. It's easier to work through your issues when you meditate. I've been meditating before I go to sleep lately. I pretty much just meditate until I get sleepy, and then I go to sleep. If I'm meditating by 11 pm, then I'll get sleepy. So what I'll do is I start meditating like at around 10 pm, so that gives me an hour of meditation. Just pretend to go to bed, but instead of going straight to sleep, give yourself about an hour to meditate.