[split] My Path

[Plenum]

Hello Dear Plenum,

Lately I was meditating and visualizing each “Energy Center” with assigned “proper color” and … my Orange Ray was the only one that seems to be empty. In case of all others I effortlessly saw bright colors of each Ray, but in the case of Orange-One, even when I tried to “filled it” with the color with my will, I was unable to visualize effect of “radiating”. It was more like an “empty hole”.

It is worrisome for me and I’m uncertain how to proceed. I would be grateful for some advice.

I would perhaps trying to work with the sentiment "I forgive myself for disowning my desires" and seeing if that has an effect on the orange-ray centre.

In another thread, you wrote a bit about some of the bullying experiences you had.  Your experiences were much worse than mine (I developed yellow ray blockages as a result of mine), but when there is gross physical infringement (it can even be astral infringement for those that have too-open a third-eye as a child), then one can easily adopt the attitude that one has no self-sovereignty, and that one has no personal say/effect on the situation.  That's a loss of personal power, and the right to be accepted as an equal sovereign entity, no matter one's age or experience level.  That loss of personal power then overlaps with the sense of "what's the point of my desires (what I want), when others can infringe on that willy-nilly".  And so one can then take the approach that it's safer to disown own's own desires, rather than having desires, experiencing them, and then having it taken away without warning.  It's a core-level feeling of disempowerment.

Again; that's a general level of analysis, and not something that I'm referencing directly to your situation.  But it's something I've observed as a commonality with orange-ray blockages.