09-03-2010, 01:13 AM
Dear Kristy,
I admire your courage in honestly expressing what you are experiencing and feeling. I just got home (late) and haven't even read all the replies yet, and will post more tomorrow, but for now I wanted to at least offer a few suggestions.
I have experienced, to some degree, what you are experienced. I've been there. I've been shocked at feelings that I never imagined I could have. I've felt frustrated with people not 'getting it' when it all seemed so simple to me. And I've been accused of being a 'satanic witch' and even 'satan himself' by religious fanatics when all I did was dare to wear a certain piece of jewelry that they thought was evil. So I can definitely relate!
The person who reported you probably thought you were an evil influence on your children. When people are in such a state of fear, they don't think rationally. They don't even see all the wonderful traits of a good parent, but are blinded by their dogma.
You came from a fear-based religion, as did I. In my experience, I discovered that the fears I had as a fundamentalist Christian just got transferred over to my 'New Age' beliefs. The 'rapture' became the 'ascension,' proselytizing to people became 'enlightening them,' fear of 'hell' became fear of getting stuck in 3D, expectation of others becoming Christians got turned into expectations of them becoming harvestable, etc.
It's all the same pattern...just the stage is different.
At this juncture, all our deepest issues are rising to the surface. Many of us here have either experienced similar things, perhaps to varying degrees, but deep, suppressed issues may be rising to the surface where they can be healed.
The good news is that becoming aware of these issues is the first step towards healing!
I agree that hitting a pillow, running, martial arts, or some other physical activity might offer a physical release in a harmless way, so that you can get these feelings out. But only for a little while. The release of intense emotions must be replaced by positive mantras and getting clear on setting your intentions to change.
Deep breathing is key. Past traumas can be stored in the cellular tissues and breathwork can access them and clear them.
Of course, you already know that the ultimate goal is forgiveness of both self and other-selves. But at this stage, allow yourself to express your feelings in a harmless way, rather than suppress them, until which time the forgiveness starts flowing.
These people are all just mirroring to you your deepest fears. As your fears are cleared, they will either change in their attitude towards you, or you'll find yourself around different people, because you'll no longer need their mirroring.
In the meantime, I suggest avoiding discussing anything controversial with them. You can be of service without rocking their boat. For many years, I was very careful to never disclose to my fundamentalist friends what I really believed, or wear a Pentacle around them, or anything like that. There was just no point. I know that this approach might seem to be a disservice to who I really am, but it just wasn't worth the grief! I am still cautious when in certain settings. I don't flaunt anything that I know will cause them to become fearful. This was especially important when my child was little, since we too live in a community dominated by fundamentalists.
Interestingly, lately I've been noticing that more and more of them seem to be less fanatical and are actually able to engage in conversation. Some are even open in some ways! So I've learned to meet them on their own turf, so to speak. If we have a discussion, I frame my thoughts in terminology they can relate to. This has helped tremendously!
I'm sure others have already posted great suggestions, and I may think of other suggestions in the morning, but for now, please remember that you DO have a spiritual family here! who love you and are, right now, sending you lots of love and light, to help you work thru this. Don't hesitate to ask our Confederation friends for help as well!
Please stay with us and let us know how you're doing. You're not alone!
to you!
I admire your courage in honestly expressing what you are experiencing and feeling. I just got home (late) and haven't even read all the replies yet, and will post more tomorrow, but for now I wanted to at least offer a few suggestions.
I have experienced, to some degree, what you are experienced. I've been there. I've been shocked at feelings that I never imagined I could have. I've felt frustrated with people not 'getting it' when it all seemed so simple to me. And I've been accused of being a 'satanic witch' and even 'satan himself' by religious fanatics when all I did was dare to wear a certain piece of jewelry that they thought was evil. So I can definitely relate!
The person who reported you probably thought you were an evil influence on your children. When people are in such a state of fear, they don't think rationally. They don't even see all the wonderful traits of a good parent, but are blinded by their dogma.
You came from a fear-based religion, as did I. In my experience, I discovered that the fears I had as a fundamentalist Christian just got transferred over to my 'New Age' beliefs. The 'rapture' became the 'ascension,' proselytizing to people became 'enlightening them,' fear of 'hell' became fear of getting stuck in 3D, expectation of others becoming Christians got turned into expectations of them becoming harvestable, etc.
It's all the same pattern...just the stage is different.
At this juncture, all our deepest issues are rising to the surface. Many of us here have either experienced similar things, perhaps to varying degrees, but deep, suppressed issues may be rising to the surface where they can be healed.
The good news is that becoming aware of these issues is the first step towards healing!
I agree that hitting a pillow, running, martial arts, or some other physical activity might offer a physical release in a harmless way, so that you can get these feelings out. But only for a little while. The release of intense emotions must be replaced by positive mantras and getting clear on setting your intentions to change.
Deep breathing is key. Past traumas can be stored in the cellular tissues and breathwork can access them and clear them.
Of course, you already know that the ultimate goal is forgiveness of both self and other-selves. But at this stage, allow yourself to express your feelings in a harmless way, rather than suppress them, until which time the forgiveness starts flowing.
These people are all just mirroring to you your deepest fears. As your fears are cleared, they will either change in their attitude towards you, or you'll find yourself around different people, because you'll no longer need their mirroring.
In the meantime, I suggest avoiding discussing anything controversial with them. You can be of service without rocking their boat. For many years, I was very careful to never disclose to my fundamentalist friends what I really believed, or wear a Pentacle around them, or anything like that. There was just no point. I know that this approach might seem to be a disservice to who I really am, but it just wasn't worth the grief! I am still cautious when in certain settings. I don't flaunt anything that I know will cause them to become fearful. This was especially important when my child was little, since we too live in a community dominated by fundamentalists.
Interestingly, lately I've been noticing that more and more of them seem to be less fanatical and are actually able to engage in conversation. Some are even open in some ways! So I've learned to meet them on their own turf, so to speak. If we have a discussion, I frame my thoughts in terminology they can relate to. This has helped tremendously!
I'm sure others have already posted great suggestions, and I may think of other suggestions in the morning, but for now, please remember that you DO have a spiritual family here! who love you and are, right now, sending you lots of love and light, to help you work thru this. Don't hesitate to ask our Confederation friends for help as well!
Please stay with us and let us know how you're doing. You're not alone!
to you!