Humanity is driving me insane...help!!

[kristy1111]

There is a chance that you are entirely right in supposing that you are not part of a humanity that is falling apart. Physically of course I assume you come from biological human parents. But spiritually, perhaps you are a Wanderer...

**I highly suspect that I am, and sometimes that thought is the only thing that keeps me from giving up when I feel I can't take humanity's crap any longer. It's just hard to think that I chose to BE a human, if I am indeed really a wanderer - because being human is sooooooo extremely hard for me thus far. I was born into *severe* problems that never have let up. I often wonder how I can be of help to others when I can't even manage myself? Any insights??

And finally, someone who is waking up to a vigorous dissatisfaction with pat answers, snap judgments and false dogmas, eagerly seeking something beyond what's "good enough to get by." I'm increasingly suspecting that this is true of me, and you know what, it seems likely enough it might be true of you too.

** You got that right! And I have been bombarded with 'pat' answers my whole life - they're all DIFFERENT answers depending on who you talk to, but they ALL claim the answers are "pat".

All the talk of welcoming grace and beauty, when the anger and frustration and fear are still pounding through your body, is like trying to stuff dessert into a pot sticky with yesterday's baked-on beans.

** Don't I know it! There are times when someone tells me to let the love and light in (when I'm really angry) - It is so impossible and even stupid sounding that I want to slap them...haha. ;o)

Much love to you!!!!! And many thanks!! ~ Kristy