Humanity is driving me insane...help!!

[kristy1111]

Maybe it's time to start branching out and looking for more people who resonate with your mindset instead of wishing the people you know would change.

** Agreed. One sad thing is, though, I can be on Facebook, for instance, and a complete stranger that is a "friend of a friend" will read a response to someone I may have answered or tried to help, and if they don't agree with me, they turn into the world's biggest jerk and bring all kinds of bad energy to my "wall" (page). Or a family member (usually a religious one) who doesn't like or agree with the way I live, can have a fit about something and become venomous towards me. Certain family members think it's appalling that I don't hate...yes HATE....gays and lesbians. I believe they should be able to marry and have children, and I might as well tell my religious friends and relatives that I sacrifice things to satan - that's how bad they react to my being non-judgmental towards gay/lesbian people. I hate to even "label" them (g's and l's)...they're people, for god-sake!

If you go by what Ra says, every action you see in another that hurts you reflects you in some way.

** This makes me feel sad and scared, but some of the things I see in others is disgusting, violent, vile, cruel, etc. To think that I have those things inside of me makes me feel....well, you know...the conditioned "guilty".

In general, when someone hurts me I try to think of what may be contributing to their situation...what factors are involved that I may not know about or would simply be content to ignore.

** I try to do that, although I'm not too good at it. I can understand people doing stupid mean things when they are hurting themselves. The thing that I don't understand is pre-meditated, carefully thought out purposeful pain inflicted upon others, like the woman who, on purpose, sent a letter to Child Protective Services and bashed out a bunch of filthy lies about me. Her only purpose was to cause extreme pain and stress, and she succeeded. I don't understand how anybody could be that heartless. And if she is a reflection of me...well, I don't see that kind of malice and hatred within myself. Actually, I DID see it *after* she reported us...but it was all directed towards her. I could have easily, with full purpose of heart, hurt her very, very bad...and probably would have enjoyed it. When someone messes with my babies - watch out.

I'm not sure how much this would matter to you, but let me say that I love you with all my heart, even though I've never met you, and I send love and light your way, Sister. I'm not exactly the beacon of perfection, but what kindness I have is yours.

** It matters a great deal to me and I thank you so much for your love. I, too, love you...and when I read your declaration of love it made me smile and lifted a weight from me.

I also thank you for the quote you sent about the Catholic priest. Very good advice indeed. I find the deepest satisfaction and inner "fluttery joyful feelings" when I do the simplest things, like opening a door with a smile, helping an old person get something from the top shelves at the grocery store, or touching someone's shoulder when you greet them. I found that people are more loving and open to me when I just touch them - it's like I'm transferring love to them and they can feel it.

love love love, Kristy

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Haha, Questioner! You should post your Facebook info on the Facebook thread that is now buried in Olio. (Started by Ayadew.)

** What is Olio?

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This session may also speak to you.

http://www.llresearch.org/transcripts/is..._1006.aspx

** I will go there, and thank you for posting this!!