Humanity is driving me insane...help!!

[Monica]

** Actually, the woman (who falsely accused us and reported us) was involved in a very fraudulent business dealing with us, and she didn't like that we called her on the carpet about it (and we weren't even mean about it!). I also believe she is jealous of the woman I am...

That's a very astute observation! I think you nailed it! I've had conflicts with women who were jealous of me also, so I can relate. But to blatantly LIE like that...how horrible! I can see why this has upset you so! Especially since your children could have been affected! That will get the maternal protective instinct fired up!

It's all the same pattern...just the stage is different.

** SO TRUE!! My husband and I have commented on this several times. In fact, to be honest, it has even made us wonder if we've just gone from one fear-based thing (religion) to another ("new age" thinking). How can we know that we haven't? Some say that religion just "said it wrong" or understood it wrong. They think the rapture is Jesus taking people into the clouds so he can destroy the world, but in reality, they misunderstood the "whisperings of Spirit" and it really means that people will "ascend". I'd LOVE some further insights on all of this because I'm telling you, sometimes me and hubby feel like we're headed for the same crud, just taking a different road.

The road is irrelevant. The destination is what's important. The beliefs don't matter. The heart is what matters.

Just as a Christian absolutely CAN awaken the heart and polarize STO via their religion, so too can a New Ager (or even Law of One student) sink into fear and shut down the heart...

Either path can result in polarizing to either STS or STO. The paths aren't STS or STO, although they may be biased one way or the other. We know the Law of One, as presented by our Confederation friends, is biased to STO, but knowledge itself has no polarity. It could be argued that the Christian faith is biased to STO, and it can just as easily be argued that it's biased to STS (just read the old testament!).

We all know of mega-church pastors who seem to be into the power, greed and glory...and we all know of beautiful, loving Christian people as well. The religion isn't the issue. People can choose either path with a fundamentalist religion, and they can choose either path with any New Age teachings, the Law of One included.

My suggestion is to focus on the path you're choosing...the knowledge is secondary. The knowledge, in this case the Law of One, is intended as a guidance system, but not the end-all.

It's obvious that fear is an issue. My suggestion is to not blame the system. Fear can be found in any system, just as love can be found in any system. If a person prefers Christianity, they can find the love by focusing on the teachings of Jesus, rather than the hell stuff or the violence/hatred that is also found in the book. If a person prefers the Law of One as their chosen philosophical guidance system, they can find the love too.

Either way, it's not the system, but the choice that is important. So I suggest don't blame the Law of One for inadvertently taking you down the path of fear. The fear was already there. It's just manifesting no matter which system you choose. So the solution is to deal with the fear. Then, it really won't matter whether you're a Christian, a New Ager, a Buddhist, or whatever.

Of course, you already know that the ultimate goal is forgiveness of both self and other-selves.

** Yep...I know that. My problem is...I don't know how. Me and hubby are always saying that the people who seem to be more wise than us always give us flowery and beautiful things to ponder, and tell us what we need to do, but never give any instructions. Being the clueless people we are when it comes to things like this, we remain just that....clueless.

OK, here are some 'instructions' of some techniques I have personally found to be extremely powerful. I invite you to consider these and use whichever ones appeal to you.

1. The technique given to us by Q'uo. Unfortunately, I don't remember which session. (Anyone?) What you do is tune into your body...see if you can locate a physical sensation of fear, hatred, anger, or whatever the negative emotion is. Where do you feel it? Probably in the lower chakras area. Locate that emotion in your body and then bring it up to the heart. How? Just WILL it up to the heart. You can use visualization if you like. I would usually see it as a big black blob of muck. See this blob of muck rising, rising, rising all the way to the heart. No, it won't blacken the heart. Quite the opposite! The heart will transform it into love! Affirm your intention that you want to transform this negative emotion into love and forgiveness. Say this to yourself as you do this exercise. Q'uo states that the heart is actually a device for doing this very thing. Sort of like the Play-Do fun factory gadget that takes the blob of Play-Do in and outputs a fun shape. This technique works. It's amazing!

2. ho'oponopono - When in the midst of anger or hatred towards someone, no matter who it is, visualize that person in your mind and then say this prayer, and direct it to that person:

I'm sorry
I forgive you
I love you
Thank you

Repeat it many times. This covers all the bases. Legend says that a shaman did this prayer for all the patients at a mental hospital and all the patients were healed. It's powerful.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ho%27oponopono

3. Rebirthing - If you can find a qualified Rebirthing practitioner, this could help facilitate the release of those old karmic patterns. Because likely you are re-experiencing emotions left over from past interactions with these people. I once re-experienced momentary hatred as I remembered a past life in which someone killed me. It was very liberating to realize the source of the feeling, and then I was able to forgive the person. Rebirthing is a breathing technique, facilitated by the practitioner, in which old cellular memories are accessed, released, and replaced by positive affirmations. It can be intense.

4. Soul Retrieval - There are 2 books I know of by that name. This is something you can do yourself, to go back in time to the original trauma and re-program your mind in its response to that trauma.

5. The Inner Guide Meditation - This is a technique that I have used a number of times and never cease to be amazed at how quickly it gets results.

http://www.amazon.com/Inner-Guide-Medita...467&sr=1-1

6. Prayer. There's nothing wrong with reverting back to the good elements of the religion you left behind. You don't have to embrace the fear-based teachings, in order to benefit from that which is useful. You don't have to pray to Jesus. Pray to the One Infinite Creator...or ask your Higher Self, or our Confederation friends, for help! In whichever way feels comfortable. The important thing is the emotional component coupled with intention. Your intention directs the prayer, but your emotion charges it. I remember a passage from the Bible, "In the day you cry out with all your heart and soul, in that day I will deliver you." Cry out with all your heart and soul, and this WILL pass!

7. Ritual. Do the LBRP. Instructions in the Law of One. Do it daily, to clear the air of any little nasties hanging around tormenting you.

8. Cleanse your aura. This can be as simple as visualizing a fountain of light bubbling up from your feet and spraying out the top of your head. Or get some sage and burn it in your home. Or visualize a giant vaccum cleaner pulling out all the gunk from your aura, then replace that with a hose connected to the Sun, spraying golden light into your entire being. There are lots of techniques for cleansing the aura.

9. Send light to the person you're angry at. Or pray for them.

10. Intention, intention, intention. Keep affirming your intention to forgive and love, and you WILL find a way!

I'll let you know if I think of any more, but how's this for starters?

These people are all just mirroring to you your deepest fears.

** How does them being total @#$! towards me reveal my fears? What I mean is, how come they don't show a literal fear, but instead act like big butt-nuggets? How can I decipher what fears I need to handle if all I am being is a scum-sucking, mean-spirited, wicked behavior?

When we are bothered by the behaviors of others, we can be sure that there is a grain of that in ourselves. Maybe we were like that in a past life...or maybe we just have a trace of it in this life, but they are showing it to us in an amplified way. But even if the fault is 99.99% the other person, the solution is ALWAYS US.

** This is something I REALLY struggle with. For instance, my mom has no problem telling me about scriptures, a book, a talk, or a miracle she's heard about. And she has no problem "bearing her testimony" to me. But when I've tried to share things with her, I literally had her hand in my face and she said, "Stop...I don't want to hear it." It seems that way with all my religious friends, too. They can praise Jesus or whatever, but I can't be who I really am. I can't support gay marriage, I can't play on Sunday, I can't NOT hate people who don't like the pledge of allegiance with "one nation under god" in it, etc. They want me to hate. I remember my hubby and I went to dinner with a bunch of people that he served a mormon mission with, and he had left the church by then. He had a small "soul patch" type of goatie, and his hair was slightly longer. He had on a hippie choker (and he looked smokin' hot, I might add...haha). The missionary friends were "aghast" at the change in him ....very shocked, and they said so. He's still the same man (only better...hehe) I want to be me without having people condemn me for it...especially when they think they can flaunt their 'true selves' in my face without so much as a wince from me.

I understand. In my own life, I am much more open than I used to be. (In fact, here I am moderating a public forum with my real name!!! Years ago, I would never have done that! I mean, what if someone I know saw it??)

It really depends on your circumstances. I could not afford to be open when my child was attending a Christian homeschool co-op, because too much was at stake. But now...I'm no longer in that situation, so why not?

I can see both sides of that debate. Really, you should be able to be yourself. You shouldn't have to hide who you really are. But there may be a price to pay, in dealing with people's reactions. And yet, if some people weren't courageous enough to come out of the closet, where would minority groups be now? It's tragic that some gays still cannot be honest about who they are...but if it hadn't been for the courageous gays, the courageous blacks, etc. then people would still be in hiding. In a sense, we are a minority, compared to the Christian population.

I think a lot of the reaction, though, is a mirror, based on our fears. For example, I breastfed my son in public quite frequently. NOT ONCE did anyone ever say anything to me about it! If they had, I would have fiercely told them, "That's what they're FOR! You'll see more at the pool."

My friends who breastfed their babies in public got hassled all the time. They were forever complaining about being hassled, and often chose to hide in the bathroom whenever the baby was hungry. Gross! I refused to feed my baby in the bathroom as though it were something dirty!

Why did they get hassled and I didn't?

I absolutely believe that it was because they were inhibited to begin with, while I wasn't. So they attracted that and I didn't.

Likewise, some years back, I attracted the fundamentalists who called me 'satanic' because of my bumperstickers or whatever. That hasn't happened in a very long time now. Why? Because time is too short to be intimidated by religious fundamentalists.

** That means the world to me and more...I really do feel like this place and the people in it are "home and family". I feel so comfortable here. How could I forget?? After reading all of the responses that I got on my "crazy lunatic" post, I felt such intense peace and calm. I felt soooooooooo much better, which told me that I was hearing truth and it was what my spirit needed, because I felt it not only physically, but at a soul level.

Wonderful! We're here for you!