(09-02-2010, 11:44 PM)kristy1111 Wrote: ** wow! So true! Thank you for helping me to understand!! I almost feel like a puppet, and my ego is the "man with the hand up my back" - the ventriloquist. The ego is trying to make me believe that it is ME who's the total jerk and I....AM ... NOT!!! Now, some would say that this is just me trying to evade responsibility for my thoughts and actions...a 'devil made me do it' attitude. I honestly wouldn't know how to answer them if they threw this at me. Ideas?
If in the innocent nature of true self-discovery, you go digging deep inside and find that this cluster of negative thought activity is not really you, then how can it be said that you are trying to escape something? You're just discovering more of yourself.
Someone can certainly hold the opinion that you're trying to blame your negative thought/attitude on your ego or some external influence. First of all, no opinion is absolute truth. But how can that one be true if you know your ego to be a part of yourself? How can the devil have made you do it if the devil was just a part of you gone rogue, so to speak? To simultaneously own up to and move beyond the issue is not the same as placing blame for it or trying to escape it. If someone is struggling to see that, that's catalyst for them!(09-02-2010, 11:44 PM)kristy1111 Wrote: WHY is the ego such a creep? Why does it want so much pain? I just don't get it!!
Well, not every ego is a creep. It's like walking a dog. lol! Someone who has a very nasty, bitey, overgrown ego is like someone being pulled down the street by their wild, out of control, huge, viscious dog. There can be an imbalance the other way if your ego is a sniveling little wimpy dog that must be urged to walk every couple of steps. Becoming aware of and transmuting the ego is like bringing your dog to the perfect shape and speed for you! It is you after all! haha
That being said, the ego is capable of being a creep so that it will be creepy to those who need to use it as a stair step towards a higher state of being.
(09-02-2010, 11:44 PM)kristy1111 Wrote: ** I knew all along it was probably a catalyst - I just didn't know how to forgive her - and I still don't. Probably because it was so pre-meditated and carefully thought/planned out for the sole purpose of hurting me. How...how...how does one forgive? I want to...I just don't know how. I want to overcome this hatred - it is really getting to me. I can say, though, that it has lessened a bit now that the threat is over.
Let's approach this issue from the backdoor. How can you NOT forgive? Well, you can not forgive if you lend credibility to the illusion that we are all separate beings and that's all we are and ever will be. You can not forgive if you can't see any part of yourself/the Creator in the other. You can not forgive if you are holding onto your pain that the encounter brought about. You can not forgive if you're not willing to forgive both yourself and them. When I forgive someone, I realize that on a deep level, they in fact ARE me and I am them. And this learning to forgive them is part of getting to that realization of oneness. Forgive me (haha!) if this is too mystical sounding, but how can the earth hold a grudge against the river for cutting through its land? How can it be angry with the storm that frightens its animals or the fire that burns down its forests? These powers of destruction are forgiven before they even happen. All the destructive forces are contained within the earth and are a part of it, in fact, a necessary part! Which reminds me, if you need to burn off bodily stress, it's great to take an evening walk and just be with the earth, and feel its love and forgiveness for you, turning that gift of forgiveness towards the one who hurt you.
(09-02-2010, 11:44 PM)kristy1111 Wrote: ** but how...has anybody on here written a lesson manual?
How not to interact with the world through an ego... I don't know exactly how yet. None of us do! That's why we're all here experiencing third density. Haha! I would consider the Law of One material, of course, to be a very good how-to manual on it! Or at least a reference point... along with so much other channeled material and piles upon piles of new age literature, teachings, sayings, the list goes on...
(09-02-2010, 11:44 PM)kristy1111 Wrote: ** So are you saying that by me just having a good loving attitude and holding on to the light (as well as emanating it) - that love spreads forth and affects every other "person"? Therefore....serving them? And by the way, I totally agree that music can touch the soul!! And thank you for sharing that song...I'll go listen to it.
Of course! When you're emanating love, it's impossible for it not to affect others positively, even if there is no outer reaction.
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