03-25-2009, 02:08 AM
I was originally thinking about creating this post in Wanderer Stories, but the truth is I'm just waking up and am still on book 1 of the Law of One, so I'll save my wanderer story for when I'm not so groggy or at least get the sleep out of my eyes. For now, I need some spiritual coffee and maybe some eggs, sunny side up!
The question I have is, does anyone here have any experience with being married to someone who isn't ready to wake up yet and can offer advice? Studying the Law of One excites me on so many levels. It is bringing together every spiritual thought that I've had over the past 33 years. I'm not sure if I'm a wanderer (in the narrow sense), but studying TLOO feels a lot like coming home. The problem that I'm having is that I can't share it with my wife, or at least I have no idea how to. I've been trying to feed it to her in bits and pieces, but she's getting frustrated that I'm being secretive since I won't just lay it all out there. If I simply share it all, I know she'll think I've jumped off the deep end, and am just believing something that I found on the internet.
On another level, I have changed quite a bit in a short period of time. Not that who I am has changed, but my core beliefs have shifted from being a typical conservative christian, to an awake wanderer (at least in the broad sense). To her this is coming across as unstable, shifting with the wind, doubting God (as she understands it) and a lack of faith. In reality my doubts have been erased and my faith is stronger then it has ever been.
My goal is that if she is to wake up, I want to be a stable support for her. If not, I want to at least enjoy our life together and raise our kids in a healthy home. How can I achieve this "balance"? Any advice would be appreciated.
The question I have is, does anyone here have any experience with being married to someone who isn't ready to wake up yet and can offer advice? Studying the Law of One excites me on so many levels. It is bringing together every spiritual thought that I've had over the past 33 years. I'm not sure if I'm a wanderer (in the narrow sense), but studying TLOO feels a lot like coming home. The problem that I'm having is that I can't share it with my wife, or at least I have no idea how to. I've been trying to feed it to her in bits and pieces, but she's getting frustrated that I'm being secretive since I won't just lay it all out there. If I simply share it all, I know she'll think I've jumped off the deep end, and am just believing something that I found on the internet.
On another level, I have changed quite a bit in a short period of time. Not that who I am has changed, but my core beliefs have shifted from being a typical conservative christian, to an awake wanderer (at least in the broad sense). To her this is coming across as unstable, shifting with the wind, doubting God (as she understands it) and a lack of faith. In reality my doubts have been erased and my faith is stronger then it has ever been.
My goal is that if she is to wake up, I want to be a stable support for her. If not, I want to at least enjoy our life together and raise our kids in a healthy home. How can I achieve this "balance"? Any advice would be appreciated.