09-06-2015, 06:24 AM
(09-06-2015, 05:07 AM)Aion Wrote: I'm gonna be an a******. I think you need to get over yourself. You hate it because you hate yourself and you can't imagine that this reality is representative of yourself. So you seek to hate the reality so you don't have to acknowledge the parts of yourself that you hate. So much easier to project it externally, to hate the world, than to face your own greedy, selfishness.
Trust me, I know, I'm the most self-serving bastard on the planet.
Trust me I know, I'm the most brutally honest person.
To myself.
I've already admitted I'm a monster in parts
But my true fear is being a horror as I feel. Somewhere down there I am, and I'm looking at it (down the rabbit hole) and its bad.
I'd put it on par with the stuff you and yera speak of being in past lives, only worse. A universe killer of infinity. A very deep hate and twisted sadness bleeding from anger i can't quite describe except worse than Malice.
Be an ass all you want, you're talking to one
But I also made my choice. I'd rather Love.