Chakra pain

[APeacefulWarrior]

Ever since I've not gotten back there because I can't handle it.

As long as you tell yourself you can't handle it, you won't. And the longer you tell yourself that, the harder it'll be for you to believe otherwise.

I've had some pretty scary\intense encounters at points. I've had moments when I've had to say "Whoa, that's enough for today" even though I wanted to press on. But I've always gone back, and I've always gotten just a LITTLE further than I did the time before. The one and only instance where I've never gone back to a particular state is when I was quite specifically told not to go there again. And that was an unusual circumstance.

If you honestly tried to get back to that green-ray state, you might even be surprised at how much more easily it comes than it did the time before. This is an ability one can only develop slowly. It's a bit like working out with weights. First you do ten reps at whatever weight. Then a few days later, you do fifteen. Then twenty. Then you put on a little more weight, even if it means only doing ten reps again. The point is to push yourself just a bit beyond where you were the last time, while recognizing there'll always be further steps ahead.

It's just that in this case, you're "working out" your spirit, rather than your body. It's the same basic principle, tho.