09-13-2015, 06:22 PM
I do think anger/rage can be used as a positive tool if used not for self. For some people, only an emotion such as this can get to their core.
I can detail further the experience I spoke of earlier. I did a mushroom trip with a friend and we worked both our incarnative archetypes as mirrors facing each other. Once harmonized (took a while, few hours), I have worked the opening of my heart which gave me an experience of the spirit of a STO nature.
When we got to my home, we talked.. talked.. talked until my sister arrived wasted as f***. (she is depressive, alcoholic and had done cocaine on that day, like many others..). She was very unwell and kept spouting nonsense, at one point she said our mother didn't love her (I personally don't care as I don't believe I need to be loved so much and am just passing by but I do know it was false). In my higher state of mind I channelled the love my mother has for her and turned it into rage. Each time she'd say our mother did not love her, I'd scream louder than the previous time "She loves you" (in french) while staring right into her eyes. Each time it seemed to shake my sister's core and she seemed to lose conviction in her affirmation more and more. Happened like 10 times in a row without any other words spoken.
It was 6 a.m. and I was challenged because I knew I could be heard from so far away (I don't think I've ever screamed that loud or was even able to...) but I knew it was important to be done.
Well.. this is my example of a positive/selfless use of anger I had not long after saying it is an emotion I probably wouldn't be able to feel anymore. Like I said, in a way it is an archetype.
I can detail further the experience I spoke of earlier. I did a mushroom trip with a friend and we worked both our incarnative archetypes as mirrors facing each other. Once harmonized (took a while, few hours), I have worked the opening of my heart which gave me an experience of the spirit of a STO nature.
When we got to my home, we talked.. talked.. talked until my sister arrived wasted as f***. (she is depressive, alcoholic and had done cocaine on that day, like many others..). She was very unwell and kept spouting nonsense, at one point she said our mother didn't love her (I personally don't care as I don't believe I need to be loved so much and am just passing by but I do know it was false). In my higher state of mind I channelled the love my mother has for her and turned it into rage. Each time she'd say our mother did not love her, I'd scream louder than the previous time "She loves you" (in french) while staring right into her eyes. Each time it seemed to shake my sister's core and she seemed to lose conviction in her affirmation more and more. Happened like 10 times in a row without any other words spoken.
It was 6 a.m. and I was challenged because I knew I could be heard from so far away (I don't think I've ever screamed that loud or was even able to...) but I knew it was important to be done.
Well.. this is my example of a positive/selfless use of anger I had not long after saying it is an emotion I probably wouldn't be able to feel anymore. Like I said, in a way it is an archetype.