09-10-2010, 11:42 PM
I have always felt more comfortable alone than with other people. I feel more centered and have much more clear thoughts. I feel more like I am in touch with myself. I often feel like I pick up on other people thoughts and emotions and feel drained. I like people and enjoy their company but sometimes I feel nervous around them. This has increased over the past 4 years and I was wondering if I had developed social anxiety disorder. When I do go around other people the relationships start out good but then dissolve because I am just not interested in maintaining them. I would rather read and work on myself. I thought mabye I am just being too selfish and have tried to connect with others but I feel like I am forcing myself and do not feel authentic. I have a husband who is wonderful and is truly a STO. My son is very STS and also drains me. Who am I? What am I? I am new to this Ra material and I am still trying to find myself!