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[anagogy]

And for what it's worth, I want to remain "immature" for now. STS seems boring, and even though I'm inclined to STO I have to ask; how can I "serve others" with the knowledge that there are no others? There is only the Creator. It is a lonely existence.

I think that it is a mistake to assume that because all is the creator that it is a lonely existence.  From my perspective, that view makes it seem like the creator is this super ego and out of its loneliness it created all these other egos out of its own substance to quell its loneliness.  To my best understanding, this was not the case.  The creator, or source of all that is, is not an individual personality.  It is a plenum of infinite Being, rather than a spark sitting in a void.  It is complete it every way you could possibly imagine.  It is impersonal beingness.  It is not joyful, loving, or happy.  Rather, it is joy, love, and happiness itself.    

If you have seen beyond the illusion of "others", then you need only seek self harmony.  Become a force of harmony and well being, and you will resonate in oneness with your other selves.  There is no need to feel alone.  Feel the joy of blending with your other selves in communal laughter, experience, and learning about the mysteries of the universe.  Look for reasons to feel good, and you will find them aplenty.  Look for reasons to feel bad, and you will also find those aplenty.  I don't recommend that path however.  Remember that the creator is all things, and all things have their time and place, but in the realm of shape and shadow (the realm of manifestation) there will always be some parts of the creation that are at complete odds with certain other parts of the creation.  And that is natural, and fine.  A cat is not compatible with the environment of outer space, a fish is not compatible with the environment of land, and a STO being is not compatible with the negativity of the world.  So find your alignment with what makes you feel joy, and well being, and leave the misery to the miserable. When you are suffering mentally, physically, or spiritually it is always a call for attention. You know how you are rarely aware of your digestive system if it is working correctly? Would it surprise you if I told you your mind is almost the same way? That when it is working correctly, you are largely unconscious of it, only aware of the joy of being.

Do what you love, seek your highest joy, your highest bliss, and will serve others quite well, and in the most unique and spectacular way that your particular manifestation of personality can.