Am I a Nihilist Athiest Spiritualist?

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

How am I 'free' again?  I'm in a class I've no memory signing up for, in a place that does as it pleases then calls me the creator of those pleasures including the suffering and torment of others like me exactly.

Let's say you, in your full sober mind, go break into a mall and wreck it up during its after hours.  Afterwards, you and your cohorts get blitzed on drugs and alcohol, and completely blot it out of your minds via chemical abuse.  The next day, the police show up and arrest you.  

Are you then not responsible for the repercussions of the decision simply because you forgot that you made it?  

Also, as an aside: what efforts have you taken to remember what you've forgotten since it is clearly of concern to you?  Have you considered undergoing hypnotherapy from someone trained in the Michael Newton method?  Might be something for you to look into.

Also you do recall the "distortion of the Law of One which suggests that an entity not receive more experience in more intensity than it may bear" ?  Personally, I prefer not to speculate too deeply on what another soul may or may not have experienced.  Afterall, we are not them.  We simply do not know.  If they tell me they had a certain experience, I generally take them at their word, but if they have not, I try not to draw too many assumptions.  This is a mysterious universe we live in, and reactions to catalyst are as infinitely diverse as the universe is large.  I'm not saying to not use common sense, but I'm much more interested in the person who is telling me what they are experiencing in their personal lives.  So if not knowing is causing you suffering, then I'm interested in aiding you in the endeavor of ameliorating that.

And about their being a point to existence.  Why does there need to be a point to existence?  Would that make you feel better?  It is only because we imagine ourselves to be incomplete that we develop this insatiable need for a grand purpose for anything.

If you were to ask me why we are experiencing what we are experiencing, I would tell you that we are simply the apparent manifestation of the creator knowing what it is like to have the experience that is "us".  The infinite source of all existence simply knows all things, and we are one of those infinite knowings.  We are god mistaking our infinite awareness of all possible permutations of mind and matter as independent realities containing seemingly independent entities.  Why would god make such a mistake?  Because THAT is the nature of the experience being known.  To imagine such a thing, when you have infinite scope of power, and infinite detail of focus, is no different from the reality itself!  Now to even say "imagine" makes it sound like a process, with a beginning, middle, and end.  In my opinion, it is simply an ever present awareness.  No beginning.  No ending.  

In reality, nothing is moving, nothing is changing, and all is eternal.  And evolution is an illusion to, simply another KNOWN in the infinity of consciousness.  Infinity is, because that's all that can be (as if that is a depressing fact, haha, that anything you could possibly hope for exists somewhere, out there, or rather, in here).

Well by that analogy of balls tripping madness Id have to simply say, that's improper to what's being talked of.  Get rid of drugs, replace with accident causing amnesia then twenty one years later as that amnesiac who never got back their memory gets arrested for doing it but is no longer actually that person mentally.

Is it fair to anyone?

My local newton institute certified Age Regression and Past Life Regression Hypnotist costs $700 for two sessions, I've looked into it . . .(and was saddened)

All those entities who committed suicide might disagree with the 'accuracy' of that distortion.  They and the one's who struggle every day not to suicide are who I usually think of in disagreement of that distortion.

Not being able to help hurts.  But suffering wise?  My suffering is internal.  Some have physical disabilities.  I don't even know if I'm sane by insanity's standards lol, but I am tired of suffering...

Why is there a point at all?  Why do we play games, or breathe?  Or exist?
There's a point to everything, even 0 has a point undefined.  There is a point, Its The Truth, I seek it.  That's all.

I'd probably seek it in 3D time/space or 6D space/time and vice versa.

Infinity implies singular unity.  Is there more than One infinity?  There's multiples of everything.  Why wouldn't infinity be one of many too?

But Why?

Just keep asking why and you'll see why I do.

Thank you for the responses so far everyone