10-14-2015, 07:45 PM
There was me, a few months ago, living my spiritual and boring life, work, exercise, hobbies and passions, nothing out of the ordinary except for being submerged in a sea of love and awareness as never experienced before, a very thin veil, feeling inspired, humbled and thankful for the very air I breath. I could be in awe by the wind blowing over the trees, a feeling of joy that made me cry at times. Meditation at morning and a thanks giving pray at night before bed, "Father I only ask you to give me the experiences that I need to evolve and the strength to lean from these experiences", that was all I was asking for, every night.
Well, I got what I wanted, the ongoing catalyst and experience that wakes me up at night, first thought in the morning, that clouds my meditation, anxiety, obsessive thinking and shaking hands.
"The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away."
So I followed the advice, I brought It all to myself, by choice, my will, I just kept going deeper and deeper with an open heart, "I'll be okay" I told myself. A crushing blow on my biggest distortion, a finger into an open wound. To late to get out of it, I tried, now I must keep going until "That which is not needed falls away." I never intended it to go this way but it is what I wanted, there's a price to pay, the forging in fire. I regret nothing, never will, I'll accept, love and be thankful for these experiences.
The illusion, the work over the physical senses, this tool of learning, a free will, the lack of love, the fear. My spirituality is almost gone, I'm lost in the illusion.
Well, I got what I wanted, the ongoing catalyst and experience that wakes me up at night, first thought in the morning, that clouds my meditation, anxiety, obsessive thinking and shaking hands.
"The proper role of the entity is in this density to experience all things desired, to then analyze, understand, and accept these experiences, distilling from them the love/light within them. Nothing shall be overcome. That which is not needed falls away."
So I followed the advice, I brought It all to myself, by choice, my will, I just kept going deeper and deeper with an open heart, "I'll be okay" I told myself. A crushing blow on my biggest distortion, a finger into an open wound. To late to get out of it, I tried, now I must keep going until "That which is not needed falls away." I never intended it to go this way but it is what I wanted, there's a price to pay, the forging in fire. I regret nothing, never will, I'll accept, love and be thankful for these experiences.
The illusion, the work over the physical senses, this tool of learning, a free will, the lack of love, the fear. My spirituality is almost gone, I'm lost in the illusion.
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