Letting go of the Law of One, Sorry.

[The_Tired_Philosopher]

Also, TTP, the 3D mind is not capable of apprehending spiritual truth.  It is a product of the ego, of separation.  It is limited to processing separation ideas, and combining them in various ways to reach conclusions that remain fully limited by separation.

Meditation and opening of the heart to the Creation allows spiritual truths to flow into our awareness.  

Trying to reason about spiritual truths before that channel is open is like trying to do calculus with an abacus.  Your answers will be highly misleading.  Really, it's garbage-in, garbage-out: in this case, the mind is using 3D distortion as the basis for its reasoning, and therefore the results will necessarily be more distortions.

For more on what it means to move from ego-based consciousness into heart-based consciousness, I very highly recommend the Jeshua material on jeshua.net.

I used to block every single voice I used to hear which I assume I was channeling by asking them who they were.  Not once did they ever provide an answer, just silence.  Except once, when one answered by saying she was Love.  And by She I mean my own voice, I honestly do not know how to explain how I could tell the difference except that I just felt it.  But, I haven't heard that Guide in a long time, I miss her.

Communicating wise, my problem isn't not believing what words are coming through, it's wondering if it's me or not.  I have no discernment.

And channeling wise, I just, I still don't understand what exactly it is, I get what it is but I don't understand the mechanics as they've been explained.  As I just...Overall constantly channeling in my mind and when I properly attune myself I can pick up on proper frequencies that certain types of beings can emit to communicate with me??

I need to finish the Jeshua information, the Male/Female energies part really helped me make sense of my red ray issues I was facing at the time.  My problem is, and I want to really make this clear.  I think I've injured my green ray, it would explain why I am not feeling any love, despite others feeling it, I can't.  Jade said my post was filled with love, the entire time typing it I felt, somewhat shameful and very cautious, bordering scared of hitting post.  I can still pick up on everyone else, and it's almost like my green ray is operating but not the way it could be, it's like I'm on minimum flow, like it's trickling but enough so with all the help my guides and everyone has been constantly giving me...

Or maybe it's that having lost control, I'm like a leaky faucet, with the loss of control I automatically close up, but being so abundant I'm always leaking...?  Maybe???  (Or maybe Ichigo from Bleach is a bad example, even if you compare his Reitsu energy to 'love' and his lack of control of it to my green ray, and the way his body just leaks it because he's so abundant of it and can't contain it but has no real control over it.)

OR...  I don't know.  I'ma make a post on the corkboard asking for some help.  Being in an open heart, I've had problems balancing some many things lately, because I lack the positive opposite to invoke and balance it with (so I discovered in meditation when I kept getting angry and when letting it taper off, Couldn't produce the equivalent opposite emotion.).

So, a blockage in unconditional love.  I need to make sense of it, but I can't work on green ray until red-yellow are worked on, but my old method of doing so literally was going through the lower sanctum, the lower green ray essentially and making sense of all my blockages in my red-yellow rays by going through them all with my shadow self that way.

Now that whatever has happened, I seem to have to be more linear, like I can't even get to my green ray without unblocking some of my lower rays, so my usual process is interrupted, and having never had to get to the point to just get to green ray, I'm a bit confused how one unblocks anything while not using green ray energies in tandem.

That's literally what I thought the Lower Courtyard of the Heart was for, processing red, orange, and yellow ray blockages to come to minimal balance to open up green ray.

Jade, how does one come to accept unacceptable situations?  I understand it's personal for everyone but there's got to be some kind of common ground for us all, being Human's and all, you know?

I've never thought to ask if I'm telling myself the truth.  I wonder what would happen if I asked myself that when I didn't realize it was myself talking to myself in my head, and I faltered at answering.  That'd be an uneasy moment in my mind.  I actually think that's how I started spiraling downward when I kept asking who the voices in my mind were, and kept getting silence, right up to when it was me asking my own self.
Then the bad form of thought disassociation, losing trust in my own thoughts, an indigo ray blockage.

I wish I had someone to meditate with.  Doing everything alone is oddly encumbering, having someone else to help me stay focused would go a long ways.

Better start working on my imaginary friend!