(10-23-2015, 01:27 AM)Billy Wrote: This is precisely how I have been feeling and I do not get it. I have a good family and friends. I have people in my life who are willing to hear me out and help me with whatever it is I need. I have this forum and the wonderful people on it and affiliated with it. Yet in spite of all of this I still feel completely and utterly alone. I just don't get it. Are you saying your loneliness was the result of a past life trauma? If so, I wonder if mine has any such connection.
We all have past life experiences that have contributed to who we are now, no doubt. I have no way of knowing how much of it was from the past life experience, but I'm sure that obviously colored my worldview. Still, the Law of One did contribute, because once I realized how vast the universe is, and how the Creator really doesn't care what we experience, I felt like nothing mattered....I didn't matter.
One thing the Christians have an advantage on is their child-like faith, where they really think they are important to God and have a 'personal relationship with Jesus'. They also think they are 'like filthy rags' without Jesus so I think it's a very UNhealthy view. But, it works for them. So after I could no longer accept such ideas, I had to find a way to feel like I mattered again to such a vast universe, in which Jesus himself was but a Wanderer.
I never did find it. It found me. I don't know how. I had nothing to do with it. Or very little anyway. Well I guess I did, but it's not like I just had a major revelation or did some special thing and Poof! I was born-again, like the Christians do. No, nothing like that. It was just response to catalyst and paying attention to certain clues that, I realize now, were provided by my Higher Self. But finally my Higher Self was revealed to me, and that is something that had never happened to me before, not even when I was a Christian.
I can't really explain it any more than that. But I was very surprised! Turns out I knew all along but just didn't make a simple, obvious connection.
One thing that did help me a lot was Nassim Haramein's work. He has shown mathematically that each one of us 'is the Event Horizon'. I highly recommend watching every video of his you can find. There are lots of youtube. He really explains the holographic nature of the universe and how it relates to each of us personally.
Also, learning about alternate timelines helped me a lot too. I realized that this isn't the only reality, and how to jump timelines in tiny, incremental steps by choosing the Love in the present moment.
I'm convinced that Christians are connecting with their Higher Selves, and just think it's Jesus. Plus, Jesus has become a very powerful thoughtform. I don't think it matters what one believes, as long as it works to connect with the Higher Self. This was the part that eluded me though. My Higher Self didn't seem reachable, no matter what I did. I know lots of non-Christian people who feel that they have a strong connection with their Higher Self, or wither their Spirit guides, or some sort of guidance system. So one doesn't doesn't need to go back to a religion to find that.
But I can relate to what Tired-Philosopher said...it's like maybe knowing too much actually gets in the way, because it's harder to just trust in some silly belief, and that might be the very thing that gets the connection made, at least in some cases.
For me, the pivotal moment came from focusing on following Ra's advice to find the Love in the present moment. I really think that the entire Ra Material could be discarded, all except for that single tenet, along with the other 4 about seeing the Creator in self, in other-selves, in Nature, and in experiences. Those 5 things, that's it. That's a powerful philosophy to live by.
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