How to Know Thyself?

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So, how do I access unconscious consciously?

But Jade, I want to know where I, as a Creator, come from.  I feel like its what interests me, what I seek to know.  I also am learning about myself slowly.  It's somewhat scary.  What happens if I don't like myself for very long?  Like sometimes i do and sometimes i don't.  Do I need to constantly be relearning who I am as I constantly change?

My general rule for being aware of my thoughts is that the only ones that are 'mine', as in the ones I identify as being 'mine' are those thoughts which I intentionally create. Everything else either comes from the Unmanifest Self (unconscious) or from other-selves. So if I'm sitting in meditation and letting thoughts arise, I don't view any of those thoughts as 'mine'. I am receiving them from some level. If I was, however, to do a visualization meditation and intentionally focus upon a thought, this thought would be mine.

So you could maybe differentiate it between 'called by the conscious self' and 'called by the unconscious self'. Those called by the unconscious self I do not view as 'mine' because they are, to me, a communication. Maybe the difference between choosing to buy a book for yourself as opposed to receiving it as a gift. Once it's in your possession they will both equally appear as 'yours' but one will be the doing of your conscious will, the other a result of unconscious attraction.