[Shower question] Why do we have to fight the urge to do bad things?

[Lighthead]

There is an idea I encountered from a Buddhist which went 'washing the dishes to wash the dishes'. The suggestion there being to be focused upon what is immediately in front of you, to focus entirely on whichever task you are set on whether that is abtract, metaphysical or concrete, physical.

So, I found that meditating is actually a natural method of mental and emotional balancing and release which is a self-aware method of 'internal grooming' if you will. What you groom yourself towards depends on the nature of your focus/meditations.

I'd like to incorporate a similar, mindfulness based routine. I would like to have it be part of my day-to-day routine. I think that my mind makes it a problem when it's something that I do in a room for a specified amount of time. I probably have to trick my mind into thinking that it's no different from what I'm normally doing. I just didn't like that weird, withdrawal-like feeling. I would like to avoid something like that as much as possible. Or at least the implication that it entails that meditation is like some kind of drug for me.

Note: There are a lot of awkward I-statements in this reply! Lol.