This is not a density of knowing

[Verum Occultum]

I can agree with this.  I personally only began 'believing' in the Law of One when I did Work In Consciousness, discovered and experienced the magical circumstance and began seeing Reality differently.

In the year 2012 I do not think was aware of the Law of One (as the Ra Material), but I started to question everything, even my own existence. I had been exploring various paths of being a 'bad boy', the usual teenager stuff. But then as I understood that path and as I began to relate to those on that path on a deeper level, I was then offered another path very randomly. So one day when I came home from school, I started meditating spontaneously despite having never even considered it. It just felt 'natural'. I often use this as a joke because it represents certain gullible or curious aspects of myself (at that time) and my Higher Self knew them and how to point me towards the light, and that is where I got the influence. Then as I began meditating each day, I found more and more insights and extremely centralized inner peace. Each day I penetrated the veil more and more and it felt so good. But after maybe some months (at the end of 2012), as I regained my spiritual knowledge which was somewhat shallow, I meditated very, very deeply and when I came back from it… I was so enlightened and felt unified with all things, there was so much love radiating outwards that I could not even believe it! At that moment I realized I am all that is and I am the only experience I can ever have (of my own presence). I felt like the luckiest person in the whole world (I was 15 at that time). It was all compassion. Maybe that is what we feel in time/space, constant bliss. After that experience I radiated the STO path very intensely. Then perhaps in 2013 summer I became aware of the Ra Material, and that has resonated with me so much. In 2014 I started developing insightful discernment, understanding of various things (emotional/mental) and application of this knowledge. This helped me in my blue-ray activation, but I was mostly centered in the higher chakras. When I used weed ritualistically to bring down some fine-tune energetics, I felt a perpetual pulse of leaving the physical body or not being in it. Back then I did not understand why this happened and it was pretty frightening. In 2015 I emphasized the energy centers, so I grounded myself to the best of my ability. Now I am learning the hidden secrets of co-creation through will power and faith alone. I aspire to subjectively become a master etymologist, a master lover, a master artist, a master musician, a master in humor, a master of compassion and wisdom, the master of humbleness and the true magus of my own inner worlds. But at the previous moment I shifted to a reality of self-doubt and such, which is why I posted this post. Now I feel that way no more, and I am in a different reality altogether. However, I thank everyone for participating in this discussion because there is much to learn. I hope you enjoyed my story