The Dream Thread

[Ankh]

I had one of these dreams from which you wake up, go to bathroom, then fall back asleep, and the dream continues. But I have some difficulties to understand it, so if someone can help me with analysis of it, I would be very grateful!

Here it goes. I was at my work, doing an "extra shift". My mom and two other nurses were there too, but they needed a registered nurse, so I came in there for just three hours. Then one of my male friends who drove me to work, showed up again in order to drive me back home. I didn't expect him to pick me up from work, but I got really happy to see him! There were very warm and loving feelings between us. As we were walking down the stairs to locker room, he took my hand and kissed it. I felt the same affection and tenderness towards him, and my instinct was to kiss his hand back, because I wanted to. But then I got a bit shy and thought that maybe I shouldn't. We were only friends! And friends don't kiss each other on their hands like that. But the love I felt was so deep, that I kissed him back anyway.

We came down to the basement where I would change my clothes, and he would wait for me in an area which looked like a cafeteria. I changed my clothes, and came inside this cafeteria looking for him. I was just about to call him on the cell, when I woke up. Too bad, I thought. Because in the dream, I just came to the best part, where it would be only him and me, in the car on our way home, and then, I planned to invite him to my home.

I got up from my bed, went to the bathroom, and then went back to sleep. And the dream continued! I was with someone, and he was just next to me, and I whispered in his ear that I had a dream about him. In the next sequence - we were already a couple, and the love that I felt was again so profound and deep, that it was probably something I never felt in this awaken life.

Anyways, this guy, I and a little group of friends prepared a trip somewhere in the space. We were doing some maintance work and preparation of a spacetrip to a "nearby galaxy". One of our friends, who was very smart, said something which I don't remember now, but I did hear his advanced words in the dream. Most of us didn't understand what it meant, but some did and they got troubled. It was indeed some sort of problem there. So I asked this guy if he could tell us what it meant, and he explained that we were going to a dimension where, when we enter it, we were not be able to see any doors, which means that you will be more or less "locked" inside the room where you were standing. And that it could give us problems and be very dangerous for our journey. But I got the idea that we would mark where the doors are on the floor, so we used chalk pointing at the doors inside our spaceship. We also, on some occasions, used red sticky tape that we put on the floor, looking like arrows, pointing at the doors inside the spaceship.

Later on in this dream I realized that we were going on a very dangerous mission, and that we might die, and never come back to our home. But then I realized that since I'm going there with him, my mate now, the death would not matter, because I would be with the person who I love most, but also that I would be with other close friends, and so the fear of death disappeared. But I still went to other friends where we lived, and told everybody about our mission, so that they would know. That we maybe will not be back. And the dream ended.

Now I understand that it might be about being a Wanderer, and the mission, and our preparations for this mission. The doors which will not be seen may be the veil of forgetting, where everything is buried behind it, but it still feels like it is not it. There is something I'm missing about this dream. There were so many details in it, and vividness, that it feels like it was an important dream, which has to do with the work of the self. So, I would appreciate any insight or thoughts that anyone here would have about it.

Thank you, guys!

The metaphor of being woefully unqualified to fly a passenger jet -- with hundreds of lives in your hands -- is pretty clear to me. At my job, I didn't feel like I had the tools to truly help our clients, nor did the agency, and they weren't interested in either training us or figuring out where and why the agency itself was failing.

This is a pretty standard thing in social work, as I understand it, especially as you work with more problematic populations. Some of THE most jaded and cynical people I've ever met were social workers, haha -- which seems backwards, until you realize that the people who can't handle the stresses of the job leave. And those who stay have to develop some seriously thick skin to do what they do day after day.

I'm not sure why I'm having that dream now, though. Other than I still need to process these feelings of guilt.

Could it be that this dream is trying to show you that you have some qualities within you, which you regard as "not being qualified for", but which in reality indeed you are qualified for? I have no idea, friend. Just throwing some thoughts out there in case it would help.